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THE DXM ZINE.
Issue 10. January 1999.
A Symposium of Articles Pertaining to DXM Use
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CONTENTS
1 From the Editor - by Gravol
2 From the Co-Editor - by Neurotik
3 Letters to the Editor
4 DXM News - from Internet reports
5 DXM Survey
6 *DXM Appears in Philadelphia Inquirer - by Gravol
7 *DXM and Psychic Phenomenon - by various authors
8 NMDA Antagonist Neurotoxicity and Olney's Lesions - by William White
9 *The Responsible Approach to Drugs - by Neurotik
10*New Years Eve - by Gravol
11*Altered States of Consciousness and DXM - by Gravol, Charles Morris
12*DXM and the Hospital Don't Mix - by Anonymous
13*Mixing DXM with 2C-B - by Gravol
14*My First Two Attempts - by Faust
15 I've Just Met God - by J
16 How DXM Compares to Ketamine - by Anonymous
17*DXM Zine Special: DXM Artwork - by Mad Hatter, Dextrometh, NickCA, et al.
18 DXM Poetry - by various authors
19 DXM Site Review - by Neurotik
20 Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder - from compiled information
21 DXM Music and Movie Reviews - by various authors
22 Various DXM Sources (from the PDR for Non-Prescription Drugs)
23 Various DXM Internet Sites
24 Various Trip Reports - from Internet reports
25 DXM Personals
26 Complete Listing of DXM Zine Past Issues
27 Credits/Zine Information
* DXM Zine exclusives
FROM THE EDITOR
by Gravol
Greetings my fellow DXMers. I think that you will find this issue
one of our very best. We've gone back to interesting articles
pertaining to altered states of consciousness and how it relates
to DXM, rather than the same old trip reports. Hopefully this
will present a more psychological view of DXM over the coming
months as we explore our own consciousness and point of existance.
I would also like to state that we now have a Co-Editor,
Neurotik, who will be helping out with article submissions,
collecting information off the net, etc. So don't be surprised
when you see his name printed throughout the text, because
he has helped to admonish the tremendous workload that yours
truly has to endear from day-to-day.
One of the great achievements of my life as of recently has
been the success of using self-hypnosis. I find it very easy
to be put into a hypnotic trance while you are coming down off
of DXM, and I will go over the techniques described to help
you do the same. With hypnosis, many things are possible, and
the combination of DXM and hypnosis can lead to a great many
things... among them self-exploration and experimentation
of simple human behavior.
We will touch more deeply on this in following issues,
but we will not completely stray from the path of the paranormal
or the purely scientific. Our goal is to promote an unbiased
publication of what DXM is today, what it is about, and where
it is headed. And I hope that you will turn the pages of
history into the pages of the future and take a guided tour
through the land otherwise known as... DXM.
Gravol
St Augustine, FL
January 17, 1999
FROM THE CO-EDITOR
by Neurotik
Hello, everyone. I s'pose it's time to get to work.
You may ask, "What kind of work?" Well, let me tell you. The kind of work
that means something and makes everyone's world a little bit better. The
kind of work that means more than just saying, "Jesus, I wish somebody would
DO something about so-and-so," or, "Why don't they change this or that?" The
kind of work that I want to talk to you about right now.
I believe that we exist to advance. I'm sure it is our natural bond to have
an interest in all things, and to want to learn about subjects and specialize
in several industries rather than one. We are here to advance, and prepare
for whatever waits for us when we die and rot. You may from time to time
wonder why I seem to have such an "infatuation" with death or the afterlife.
I can understand in advance why you would assume this, but the real story is
that I have, for a very long time, been worried about what was next. Not
that I ever considered that I might burn in hell -- because I don't
particularly fall for the whole "fire and brimstone" ultimatum. That's not
what worried me. What still worries me from time to time. Especially
following one of my most recent DXM trips which I will tell you about at
another time. I, like most, am terribly uncomfortable with being pushed
into anything I'm not sure of. Especially at the level of magnitude that I'm
sure will commence from the point of death. I have no idea what will happen,
what's in store, how to communicate, or even if there will be anyone to
communicate to. I'm absolutely sure that we are much more than our human
bodies. It's something that we should all feel as clearly as we feel "common
sense." Our bodies only exist to alert our minds when the "ship is in
danger." After all, we're not nearly ready to see what's on the other side
yet, are we? So we need our bodies to protect us as we grow, learn, interact,
and try to struggle with the big questions: Why? When? and What's next?
It's what we need to get us through this particular level.
I also believe in our freedom to achieve this knowledge through ANY MEANS
AVAILABLE. As long as our search doesn't tear anyone down (anyone who doesn't
absolutely deserve it, that is), we should be able to ingest any chemical,
read any book on any subject, write whatever we want to inform others of what
we've found out or what we suspect. Whatever that may be. We have man-made
laws, and to a greater or lesser degree we DO need this type of order. But
many of those laws are irrelevant to our cause and should be dismissed as
trivial opinions that don't affect us one way or the other.
Now, do NOT go running to your friends and local papers and try to make me
out to look like one of the Freemen or other such rebellious, anti-social,
anti-government, gun-toting, militant, angry men. I'm not saying "grab a
weapon and take action!" What I'm saying is that we need to get to work.
We have the power to change anything, no matter how hopeless things may seem
at the time. We have the power to change laws. And until those laws are
changed, we have the power to spread INFORMATION about what we find. We have
the responsibility to write about what we know and to help others continue
their journey here as thoroughly as possible. And we all have the ability to
theorize -- and that's one of the important ones.
What could all that mean? For us and a lot of the so-considered "Digital
Underground" it could mean helping others learn how to ingest chemicals safely
for exploration or entertainment. It could mean showing someone how to break
into a computer system to gain access to needed information from some
dickhead who wants everything in the world to remain "top secret." It may be
researching explosives just because we have an interest. It could mean
anything at all.
And let me tell you, there are very few media sources that I have a tremendous
amount of respect for, but the DXM Zine caught my eye and I've been a
supporter ever since I was turned on to it. I like what Gravol has done; I
like the source of information he has provided and the opportunity for each
of US to have a voice.
Which brings me to my last little spiel: How YOU can help! CONTRIBUTE YOUR
VOICE! Write us something. Send us some trip tales -- with as many details
as possible. Send us a music review or some philosophical essay. Tell us if
DXM is doing anything to help your understanding grow. Send us articles on
concerns or drug-related news. Let us know what's going on in your neck of
the woods. Your voices will be very helpful in determining where our little
e-zine goes from here. And it will help us help keep all of you informed
on what Big Brother is up to. It'll let us know who our readers are. And
who knows? You may even get published in the DXM Zine and make a name for
yourself worldwide as "someone who's doing something." If you do have
something to tell us about -- even if it's just a letter, send it to us at
our new address: [email protected]
Well, I'd just like to thank Gravol for giving me this forum to work with,
and I'd like all of you to know that I look forward to a very long
relationship with the DXM Zine readers and anyone doing anything to make
things a little better for everyone.
Out!
Neurotik
January 15, 1999
From [email protected]:
Thanks once again for sending me the last issue of the DXM Zine. I think this
publication is truly bringing very useful information to all of those
interested in serious scientific research of this substance.
Finally, I wish you a happy and prosperous 1999 and encourage you to keep
up the good work, and that the new year may bring more progress in your
publication endeavors.
- Anonymous
From [email protected]:
By the way, I just wanted to let you know that I enjoy reading your zine a
lot -- and I don't just mean because of the immense information and
interesting views (any encylopedia or resource contains facts) -- but your
METHOD of writing, your style. It makes it a very GOOD read. It's great
that it has so much to offer, but what makes it work and really sink in is
that you write your articles in a way that is relative to us. I think what
you're doing is good for everyone.
- C. Alexander
From [email protected]:
I have noticed an odd memory effect with DXM, that is not really discussed
in the FAQ or anywhere else; DXM seems to most always close a chapter in my
memory; puts a sort of 'psychic door' or something... Things that have
happened no farther than 2 weeks prior to my last DXM trip seem oddly far
away, oddly detached. Since I have taken DXM in September and was taking
it once a week, my memory of events from that period to now (except for
the last month, since I took it a month ago) seems choppy, very hard to
put together.
When I first took DXM it really struck me, and although I thought my
emotions coupling with memory skills were back, in retrospect I'm no so
sure anymore...
Anyways great zine...I'll try to contribute with something, perhaps on that
memory thing, as I wanted to write something more extensive about it
(and the subjective effects of NMDA receptors).
- P. Roy
From the Editor:
Dear Mr. Roy-
Thank you for bringing this issue to light. We will touch on this in
a future issue, after I receive a detailed report of your own experiences.
It may be so that you're not the only one who's experienced such a thing,
or maybe somebody has more information out there that would like to contact
us. Good luck in your travels.
- Gravol
From [email protected]:
I was just wondering if you've ever heard of "delsym". Its a different
kind of dxm. any info you have on this would be appreciated. Thanks.
- Dave
From the Editor:
Dear Dave-
Delsym is time-release DXM, or DXM polistirex. It is sold in 3oz
bottles by Medeva as an orange syrup and is considerably more expensive
than most other syrups. The common characteristic of Delsym trips are
that they last longer but aren't as intense as regular DXM. It is an
entirely different kind of DXM, with a different type of trip, even
though a lot of the same characteristics of regular DXM are apparent
with Delsym - however, it is very different from DXM.
For more information regarding Delsym and its dosages, check out
the DXM FAQ (www.frognet.net/dxm) or past issues of the Zine. There
have been quite a few articles published on Delsym in past issues.
Hope this helps.
- Gravol
From [email protected]:
Just wanted to say I love the DXM Zine, you're doing an amazing job!
- Maddie
From [email protected]:
Keep up the good work:) they are all improving each month....
nice to see so much support for it too.
- Andrew
From [email protected]:
I sure wouldn't want to miss one episode of this great service.
In a word, the Zine is awesome. To say any more would be to cheapen
the sentiment... Your effort is truly a work of good.
- A. Prawitt
DXM NEWS
from Internet reports
"Media gets ahold of DXM - again"
A subscriber contacted the Zine and informed us that someone in her
immediate family found a copy of the Zine and threatened to take it
to the news media. A number of TV stations already want to interview
that individual regarding the Zine and DXM in general.
It should be noted that the Zine does not condone this type of
activity, nor does it condone the use of DXM in any way. DXM is
a legal substance that has a lot of research potential, and this
zine is only a publication of the interests of responsible adults
who want to express their opinions about DXM use and other facts
related to DXM, and should be used for entertainment purposes only.
"Pennsylvania police fight against DXM use"
A teenager in a large city of Pennsylvania went to the hospital after
ingesting 500mg of DXM and attracted the attention of local authorities,
who in turn found out that the powder had been purchased off the Internet,
and the supplier's information. The city's name is being withheld to
protect the identity of the individuals involved.
The accused person or persons of selling it to the individual were told
by guidance counselors that they were "manufacturing Robitussin drugs" in
their rooms, and that any more than 500mg of DXM would kill a person.
Such misinformation is widespread these days as local authorities in
many Midwest towns battle an onslaught of DXM usage in high school
communities. One such community, Tredyffrin, Pennsylvania, is featured
in the first article segment in a similar story of DXM and the media.
Other communities in the limelight include Cheboygan, Michigan; Akron,
Ohio; and the Dallas area of Texas.
"DXM Zine changes email address"
The DXM Zine has now changed its email address from [email protected]
to [email protected], because of numerous system downtimes
and server errors with dxm.net. Please do not send email to
[email protected], because it will more than likely get lost.
The survey questionnaires were posted via email because of the
unexpected trouble with the email address. For all future surveys,
please fill out the survey found in the Zine and return it on your
own to [email protected].
"DXM Zine announces new Co-Editor"
The DXM Zine is pleased to announce the addition of a Co-Editor
to help with editing of the Zine, article submissions, subscriber
issues, and other important tasks related to the continuing performance
of the Zine.
His name is Neurotik, and you can reach him through the Zine's
email address, [email protected]. He will be submitting many
articles himself, so please keep a watchful eye out for him.
"William White speaks out against use of Coricidin"
William White, the author of the DXM FAQ found at www.frognet.net/dxm/
has spoken out against using Coricidin Cough & Cold and is now strictly
against its use. A report had come in about someone ending up in critical
condition because of anticholinergic toxicity.
He states "Do not use Coricidin! If you do, well, first off, I told
you not to, and second, please be so kind as to leave a note, or tattoo
on your forehead, Yes I know this is dangerous, I'm doing this of my own
volition, don't blame anyone else if I fuck up."
Coricidin has long been thought to be dangerous because it contains
chlorphenaramine maleate, an antihistamine that can severely affect
vision and sinuses in high doses. It is not deemed safe by most of the
DXM community, but there are sharp rifts present from those who do
advocate its use and claim it is safe and those who are strictly against
it. For the most part, Coricidin is referred to as the "crack" form of
DXM, and this Zine no longer condones the use of Coricidin Cough & Cold
or any form of DXM that is mixed with any other active ingredients.
"Administration of grapefruit juice to weaken DXM's stoning effects"
It has been noted in a recent study that grapefruit juice may be
taken in the middle of a trip to make the stoning effects of DXM
less intense. The trip itself will still continue but coordination
and other aspects related to the DXM:DXO ratio will be less intense
but longer-lasting because of the altered metabolism of DXM.
Some people have a strong aversion to grapefruit juice, while
others enjoy its effects on DXM. But if a trip does get out of hand,
it is recommend that 1-2 glasses of grapefruit juice be ingested
and results should appear within 20 minutes. It is still not a
guarantee of averting a bad trip, however, and caution should still
be exercised.
"New brand of Robitussin released"
A new brand of Robitussin Maximum Strength Cough has been released,
not replacing the old one, called Robitussin Honey Cough. There are
no initial reports of whether this syrup tastes remarkably better
than the cherry-flavored syrups or not, but it is the first time
that Robitussin has come out with a non-cherry flavor syrup.
The new syrup contains 10mg/5ml, as opposed to 15mg/5ml in
Robitussin Max Strength Cough. It is of a weaker strength than
Robitussin Max Strength Cough (236mg) so 8oz of the syrup would
have to be ingested to achieve any euphoric effects.
"DXM Zine announces contest winners"
Congratulations to Charles Morris and Trippin, last month's winners
in the new DXM Zine contest. Trippin sent in his survey and was
picked on January 20. Mr. Morris contributed an article for Issue 10
and was also picked on January 20.
The drawings will be discontinued indefinitely, due to a lack of
resources and recent publicity surrounding DXM and the Internet. Any
article contributions are still greatly appreciated and we hope this
won't deter anyone from participating in the Zine.
Last Updated: January 25, 1998
DXM SURVEY
A Survey on DXM Use
Hello and welcome to this month's survey. Please take the time to fill
out the following form and return it to [email protected] with "Survey"
in the subject line. Results will be posted in Issue 8 for this survey.
Also, when you return your survey you are automatically put in a drawing
for a 5 gram giveaway of DXM powder to be drawn in December. Last month's
results are posted at the end of this section.
1. Y/N Have you ever vomited during DXM use?
2. What form of CEVs (closed-eye visuals) have you gotten from DXM use?
Name all of the following you have experienced, even if they have
not been all at the same time:
A. Geometric shapes
B. Realistic objects
C. Blobs or shapes of unknown origin
D. People or entities
E. Not listed
3. How frequently do you get CEVs from DXM use?
A. Every trip
B. Occasionally
C. Very rarely
D. Occurs in cycles or only over certain stretches of DXM use
E. Never
4. Y/N Do you believe in the existance of spirits or other beings
beyond our realm of existance or knowledge?
As you can see, this survey is related to a wide variety of topics,
including nausea and how many people have actually gotten sick from
DXM. It also touches on CEVs and tries to get a better understanding
of what they are, why they exist, or how we can obtain optimal amounts
of them. Also, we'd like to get an idea on how many people believe
that there are other entitities present in the universe and that
we aren't the only living beings. This just helps us to understand
our subscriber base better.
Please do your best to answer and return promptly. It would be
appreciated if you could return the survey before reading the actual
Zine so the results can be recorded immediately. The cut-off date
for receiving entries is February 19. Thank you.
Last month's survey results are posted below:
There were 27 participants, or 9% of the total number of subscribers.
100% of those who participated were pleased with the content of the Zine.
19% of those who participated claim they frequently use DXM at least
3 or 4 times a week.
7% of those who participated claim they have experienced longterm effects
from DXM (which may or may not go away with a decrease in usage)
after taken in large doses or from repeated use.
66% of noted longterm effects were permanent tracers.
33% of noted longterm effects included hallucinations, flashbacks, or
other effects.
These results show that 1 in 5 individuals use DXM at a frequent level
(at least 3 to 4 times a week) on a current basis. It is clear from
these results that most people are in an experimental phase of DXM
and are not heavy abusers.
Most people have also not reported any longterm effects from DXM.
However, some people who claim they have not experienced any longterm
effects from DXM may not have actually tried it in large enough amounts
of as frequently as would be necessary to facilitate such effects,
so further studies would have to be done on this to get a better picture
of the chances at achieving longterm effects from constant or heavy
DXM use (it should be noted that there are no known longterm effects
associated with light or very occasional DXM use). Tracers or
"perm-a-trails" as one person put it were the most common longterm
effects, but these may actually go away after a long enough period
of abstaining from DXM usage. Flashbacks and visual disturbances
were also reported, but minimally. One user stated that as he lays
in bed to fall asleep each night in a darkened room, he gets flashbacks
and hallucinates (though the severity of these hallucinations is
not known). He stated that this was from a DXM binge in which he
ingested a total of 23 grams in a period of 3 weeks time, averaging
about 1 gram a day, so this is not surprisingly hard to conceive.
There was also only slightly greater response to the survey than
in last month's issue (1% increase in returned surveys), but overall
survey participation has been down since Issue 8's survey came out
(4% decrease).
Thank you to all who participated in this survey, and I hope even
more of you will participate in this month's survey.
DXM APPEARS IN PHILADELPHIA INQUIRER
by Gravol
Much to my dismay, I have learned that the Philadephia Inquirer has
published an article on DXM abuse after several girls became sick from
it at a local high school. This is not the publicity we need, considering
DXM should only be used by responsible adults who can make their
own decisions, and such instances only hurt our freedom of choice, but
there's no doubt that like with any drug, it's going to get into the
hands of the wrong people and cause unwanted scrutiny. Unfortunately,
we can only watch in horror as such cases pop up, more and more
frequently.
The article appears below, and is also available on the web at
www.phillynews.com/inquirer/99/Jan/07/pa_north/NDRUG07.htm.
"Chemical bought over Net fells teens"
The four students in Tredyffrin were treated for shortness of breath.
Police were investigating.
By Meredith Fischer
and Kay Raftery
INQUIRER SUBURBAN STAFF
TREDYFFRIN -- Four Conestoga High School students were sickened
yesterday after taking a white powdery substance given to them by two
fellow students who bought the apparently legal drug through the
Internet, township police said.
Complaining of shortness of breath and a racing heart, four female
sophomores were taken to Paoli Memorial Hospital shortly after lunch.
They had been released by last night.
The two male students who gave the girls the drug were questioned but
not charged, police said. The two, ages 15 and 16, are from Berwyn.
Their names were not released.
"The signs and symptoms are not life-threatening," Tredyffrin police
Sgt. Joseph Carbo said. "We do not know of any violations now."
The drug is dextromethorphan, or DXM. It is commonly found in
over-the-counter cough suppressants. When taken in much larger doses,
the drug can cause stomach pain, cramping, dizziness and vomiting, and
may result in a coma and brain damage.
Police said they did not know when the girls ingested the drug or how
much they had taken. The girls were a 16-year-old from Berwyn and three
15-year-olds, from Wayne, Devon and Radnor.
"We understand that these boys have been taking the drug for a while,"
Carbo said. "It seems that only the four girls had this kind of
reaction. We were able to get a sample of the drug and bring it to the
hospital, where it is being tested."
A search of the Internet last night produced more than a dozen Web sites
for DXM, including those that advertise the sale of the drug as well as
personal sites that tout its effects and recommend music to listen to
when taking it.
A majority of the sites appear geared toward young people, including
sections that offer advice on "going to class, school, or work on DXM"
and "How do I tell my friends I'm getting high off cough syrup?"
Kris Gorman, a pharmacist at Paoli Memorial Hospital, said DXM was a
"very, very dangerous drug."
"It's used as a cough suppressant that is found in syrups with 'DM' in
the name, like Robitussin DM," Gorman said.
Cough syrups, however, usually contain about 5 milligrams of DXM per
teaspoon, not nearly enough to cause any harm, Gorman said.
People who abuse the drug, she said, take anywhere from 300 milligrams
to 1,500 milligrams.
"There's different plateaus you can reach," Gorman said. "At first it
may have a mild, stimulant effect. Second plateau is compared to being
drunk and stoned at the same time. Third can be hallucinating. The
fourth plateau, the most dangerous, would be like experiencing an
out-of-body feeling."
Possession of the drug is not illegal, she said.
"You can't just go into the pharmacy and buy it," Gorman said. "You'd
have to order it through a drug company."
On the Internet, other companies advertise that the drug can be bought
with a credit card or through an 800 number.
Police said yesterday that they planned to question the two boys about
how they got the substance on the Internet.
"I did not know anything about this drug," Carbo said. "We didn't even
know if it was legal or illegal."
A teacher and a fellow student at Conestoga said the incident was the
talk of the school yesterday. Television news crews arrived shortly
after ambulances took the four students away. Classes resumed once the
commotion was over.
At the close of school, Principal Susan Yates held a faculty meeting to
brief teachers on how to handle questions from students today.
She told teachers to stress that the drug was not an illegal substance
and that the situation was under control, according to a teacher who
declined to be identified. The teacher said Yates ordered the staff not
to talk to reporters about the incident. Yates could not be reached for
comment last night.
Superintendent Theodore Foot did not return phone calls.
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It's obvious, from my standpoint, that the media is attacking DXM with
much brutality and it's only a matter of time until the sale of DXM-only
preparations are taken off the market and businesses who sell DXM to
individuals restricted because of instances like this. But what's worse
is the simple fact that they paint a picture of DXM being dangerous...
much like heroin. Not so! But what are we to do? We can't defend ourselves,
afterall... we can only keep quiet and keep an eye out and pray that this
doesn't lead to any new laws or restrictions on the sale of DXM (much
like Australia did).
DXM AND PSYCHIC PHENOMENON
by various authors
It is already known that for most people who try DXM and like it, it
has changed the way they perceive the world... and their own destiny.
About two-thirds of people that responded to last month's survey
reported that DXM influenced or changed their religious beliefs.
That's quite a statement coming from a drug found in cough syrup.
But now we're going to further look into how DXM relates to psychic
phenomenon, and the theory that by taking DXM on a regular basis,
you can actually enhance your own psychic abilities.
I myself, Gravol, have witnessed this firsthand. I was the last
person to think I had an ounce of psychic awareness, whatsoever.
But then I tried DXM, and after about a year of use I began to
notice little things... but I couldn't quite prove they meant
anything until just recently.
Some of the changes that occurred while I took DXM on a regular
basis:
o Everytime I met someone new I instantly knew if we would actually
date, become a couple, or really good friends, simply by getting
a weird feeling in my stomach when I first talked to them... even
if it was online. In one such instance, my friend was dating a
girl named Kim and as soon as I heard her name mentioned by him
to my other friend for the first time, I got the weirdest feeling
in my stomach and thought to myself "There's something weird
about this girl... about this situation... but I just can't place
it." Another girl whom I first talked to online, I later called,
and upon talking to her on the phone for the first time I _knew_
she was going to become my girlfriend at some point, and sure
enough she did. Did these feelings ever occur over someone that
I didn't become somehow romantically involved with? Never. And
I always knew beforehand and told myself that I knew this person
was going to become some sort of romantic partner, and sure enough
she always did.
o Whenever something bad was about to happen, I always got a weird
sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach; the first time my
girlfriend-at-the-time told me that she was going on a dinner
date with her mom and some guy, I begged her not to go (I usually
trusted her around other guys... she was grounded and her mom
would always set her up on blind dates)... but she did and the
guy tried to rape her. Another time was when she first mentioned
a guy named Jeff to me... I knew right away that this guy was
going to cause trouble for us at some point down the road... not
only was he invited to Disneyworld and Georgia with her by her
mom, but he drugged her with XTC and almost raped her as well...
and after she didn't go along with it he struck her. One night
I was on the phone with her after just coming down off DXM and
I begged her to stay in her room, that I felt something bad
was going to happen.... sure enough, the guy was outside her
house at the time, parked in the driveway with his friends,
practically stalking her... luckily her brother eventually
punched him in the face and broke his nose since I wasn't there.
o More feelings of doom, but this one quite different. This feeling
grows stronger every day, and I've had it for the past couple
of years, but now that 1999 is finally here, and DXM is being
done at a constant basis, I'm once again beginning to think that
something big is going to happen either this summer or around
the year 2000. So strong, in fact, that I've begun keeping a
scrapbook of current events to see if perhaps Nostradamus's
predictions are going to come true. I'm not the most gullible
person on earth, but the feeling I get over what may happen
later this year is stronger than all the above feelings combined
at times, and those have never been wrong... so why should this
one? To sum up the way I feel, and why I mention Nostradamus
here, read the following passage:
"In the year 1999 and seven months, from the sky will come the great king
of terror. He will bring back to life the great king of the Mongols.
Before and after war reigns happily."
- Century 10, Quatrain 72
Nostradamus wrote his prophecies in poetic verse to avoid being hung
for witchcraft at the time. He also lived in France during the black
plague and predicted everything from Hitler to Clinton's impeachment.
He states that WWIII is going to occur this summer supposedly during
the "feast of the eagle"... what many to believe to be July 4. But
anyhow, there will be a later article dedicated to prophecy and how
it ties in with DXM. For now, I just wanted to touch on how it relates
to my supposed psychic impressions and feelings.
o I've done a great many tests, or guessing games over the computer
and phone (I don't do these too often because I feel if you try to
test the workings of the universe, you'll be unable to do so... it's
the same as commanding a ghost to appear before your eyes... everything
happens thru coincidence... you can't control it)... for instance
my girlfriend-at-the-time would tell me to guess what color she was
thinking of, and as I concentrated a color would flash into my head
(most of the time I was also on DXM, but not all of the time) and
I was _always_ right... I've only done it about 5 times to different
people, but I haven't been wrong yet. I could also tell her what
position she was sitting in, what she was thinking of or about to
say at certain times... and other things. Sometimes it's as if I
can read peoples' thoughts at certain moments... or we start talking
about the same thing at the same time by mere coincidence that has
nothing to do with the previous conversation.
There are many more instances, but they're too numerous to mention here.
Instances like the phone ringing and knowing who's calling me even before
I pick it up. And as more occurrences become apparent, I will publish them
in the zine. One thing is apparent, however... these "feelings" I get are
becoming stronger and stronger... maybe I'm just reaching a vital point in
my life where a lot of stuff is about to happen that will forever affect
my future. Or perhaps by continuing to do DXM, I will be further increasing
my psychic abilities. I really don't know. All I do know is that I
honestly believe they have been increased slightly, because nothing
like this _ever_ happened before I began taking DXM.
More Streetlight Phenomenon
In the first issue was an article talking about how streetlights seem
to go off for certain individuals either on or off DXM. They related
these happenings to some sort of psychic phenomenon, because nobody
else would report these instances unless they were with that particular
person.
Since we still don't know the exact workings of city streetlights,
we can't really totally discount these occurrences at this time, but
more and more people that do DXM are coming to me and telling me they're
witnessing the same thing. Most likely it's just that some lights turn
off for random intervals to save power, but I haven't found anything yet
to back that up. And if that's the case, why don't more people notice
it? It seems that the only people who seem to have knowledge of such
things thus far are people who have done DXM in the past. Weird, huh?
William White
What does William White have to say about psychic phenomenon? Of course,
he's not going to totally back it up, but view it from a scientific
and neurological viewpoint. But because I try to present an unbiased
selection of articles in the zine, I will include what he has to say
about it as well:
"A few people have reported "Psi" phenomena such as ESP (extra-sensory
perception), clairvoyance (psychically seeing distant places), and the
like. Telekinesis doesn't seem to be reported, although a few report
that, while under the influence of DXM, they felt like they could
slightly influence the laws of probability. All of these can be safely
explained as simply drug-induced delusions, although there has been to
my knowledge no formal research on the subject.
"It is possible that ESP and related phenomena (with DXM use or without)
exist but occur entirely randomly, or only when not being observed
critically. Since repeatability, and invariance under observation, are
the foundations of science, it may be that questions about psychic
phenomena will never yield entirely to science. At this point it becomes
a matter of faith.
"One interesting factor which does differentiate ESP from other
paranormal phenomena is that while most paranormal experiences occur
more often during heavier geomagnetic activity, ESP occurs more often
during decreased geomagnetic activity (346). The true believers would
probably argue that the geomagnetic field is interfering with ESP; the
skeptics would most likely suggest that "ESP" is just a consequence of
similar thought patterns leading to similar conclusions, and that the
geomagnetic field may be capable of inducing noise into the system."
The next section goes on to explain how these experiences can be
explained. Keep in mind, this does not necessarily reflect my views,
but I think it is a good idea to present every viewpoint in trying
to understand this phenomenon. The rest of this article is written
by William White.
Okay, so why do people keep having these experiences? Where do these
spiritual entities and weird altered states come from? Could a simple
molecule be responsible for such a complex set of experiences, or is the
DXM molecule just a key that unlocks a hidden part of the brain? Here I
will summarize a few theories that I have run across attempting to
explain these phenomena.
Temporal Anomalies
The title is something of a pun, since many of these paranormal
experiences seem to involve curious twists of time and causality. But
the intended meaning is anomalies in the behaviour of temporal lobe
limbic networks: the hippocampus and surrounding areas. It is here that
memories are stored beyond the immediate (or short-term), and here where
these intermediate-term memories (ITM) are integrated back into the
neocortex to become long-term memory. We are still a long way from
understanding how these areas work.
DXM does seem to exert profound effects on temporal lobe limbic
networks. These networks may integrate sensory data from the neocortex
and the current contents of intermediate term memory, keeping the
results in a resonating feedback loop until it can be discarded, acted
upon (by passing it to the motor cortex), or integrated permanently into
long-term memory. Dissociatives seem to lower the strength of sensory
input, possibly by increasing the firing of neurons which inhibit
sensory networks. Similarly, the NMDA receptors which are responsible
for forming intermediate-term memories are inhibited. So one is left
with a resonant circuit whose other inputs have been attenuated or cut
off.
These patterns (internal states) pass repeatedly through the limbic
networks (and this seems to be strongly related to the production of
theta waves). Eventually, the "goal" (if one wants to think of it that
way) is probably to reach some sort of a decision, and then pass the
information to the motor cortex where action can be taken; supporting
this idea is the fact that theta wave activity drops immediately before
motor cortex activation. However, with motor output reduced, one is left
with a constant echoing of signals through the limbic areas (possibly
bouncing back and forth among the neocortex, prefrontal lobes, and other
areas). As these signals bounce back and forth without being "tied down"
to sensory input or memory, they become increasingly distant in form
from any normal signals you're likely to encounter.
It has been suggested that all human temporal limbic networks share a
common "language", i.e., a particular pattern of neural activity in one
person's limbic system and an equivalent pattern in another person's
limbic system are paired with equivalent mental states. This is a
bold assertion, and if true means that internal states (such as
happiness, anger, boredom, familiarity, comfort, recognition, novelty,
perhaps even as complex as "I'm being abducted by aliens") may be
encoded in different individuals by the same neural patterns. Thus, the
particular patterns induced by dissociatives may simply correspond to
particular sensations, states, emotions, and/or beliefs, that people
interpret in similar ways.
Going one step further, it may be that the reason that people encounter
UFOs and aliens nowadays, whereas they encountered airships, ghosts,
faeries, spirits, etc., before, was that while the internal states are
the same, the memories or ideas associated with them have changed. The
neural network pattern that in a modern human means "UFO" may have meant
"demon" a few centuries ago. These patterns are outside the range of
normal brain functioning, but may be induced by drugs, electromagnetic
waves, temporal lobe seizures, and so on.
Complex Partial Seizures
Partial seizures involve only a subset of the brain and, if they occur
in areas without direct connection to the motor cortex, may go
unnoticed. Complex partial seizures are those which involve a loss of
normal consciousness. Some have argued that there is a continuum between
normal and epileptic, and that most people have some sort of simple or
partial seizure activity at some point in their lives. Some signs
of complex partial epilepsy do seem to be more common among females who
profess beliefs in the paranormal.
On the other hand, a significant lack of humor is one of the hallmarks
of people who suffer from temporal lobe complex partial seizures and of
the experiences induced by the seizures themselves. Furthermore, those
with complex partial epilepsy may show increased fantasizing but often
show reduced self-esteem.
Whether one calls it seizures or abnormal network activity, it does seem
to be responsible for some interesting things. Most common are sensed
presences and vestibular sensations. The former may be an intrusion of
the right hemisphere's self-concept into the left hemisphere's consciousness.
Persinger found that such sensed presences also occurred during times of
verbal creativity, and may explain the embodiment of creativity in the form
of the Muse. In fact, a more general view of the right hemispheric conscious-
ness as an "alien" or "godlike" presence has been suggested by Jaynes.
Influence of the Unseen Environment
Another idea is that while these internal neural network states are the
reason for such curious experiences, it's not the DXM (or other
dissociative) alone that's responsible for the content of the
experience. Instead, the DXM is just priming the temporal lobe limbic
areas to receive information from "extrasensory" sources.
Before you shrug this off, however, let me explain what I mean by
extrasensory. Perhaps I should have used another term, as I am not
calling for one to accept psychic powers; I'm merely claiming that the
brain may be susceptible to the environment in ways which we don't
usually acknowledge.
The most likely of these is ultra-low frequency electromagnetic and
magnetic waves, which seem to be received quite well by the hippocampus
and surrounding areas. In fact, many species have a well-defined "inner
compass" which reads the magnetic field to help determine position, and
in humans, magnetite particles have been detected in the hippocampus.
These may be an evolutionary leftover, like the appendix, or they may
still function, providing part of the overall feeling or zeitgeist of a
particular place. Humans are susceptible to low-frequency magnetic
stimulation of the temporal lobes, and do respond to geomagnetic events.
Alien sightings increase significantly before earthquakes, and some have
even suggested using these as a predictor of future geological events. In
addition to direct effects on the limbic areas, geomagnetic activity also
lowers the activity of melatonin; melatonin has been shown to reduce the
frequency of seizures.
Another possibility is that information is being perceived by the senses
but forgotten, or never noticed, by the conscious mind. This information
could form a complex tapestry of ideas and concepts that we are not
directly aware of, and could manifest itself in breakthroughs, insights,
and so on.
There is a (somewhat suspect) theory called the "100th monkey
phenomenon", which posits that when enough members of a society learn
something, eventually everyone will become aware of it without directly
coming into contact with it. Unfortunately for its adherents, the
original research on monkeys acquiring skills turneposits that when
enough members of a society learn something, eventually everyone will
become aware of it without directly coming into contact with it.
Unfortunately for its adherents, the original research on monkeys
acquiring skills turned out to be flawed. However, it is worth noting
that slang expressions, ideas, and so
This is what I mean by the "unseen environment" -- unconscious factors,
whether of sensory or unconscious origin, that can affect us and
seemingly come from nowhere. Perhaps many of the experiences people have
on dissociatives are a result of this unconscious data coming to
conscious mind. One possibility is that with the temporal circuitry in a
closed feedback loop, slowly varying geomagnetic waves can induce common
sequences of internal states in people. Another possibility is that
there are unrecognized influences of popular literature (e.g., science
fiction novels and movies) which color the dissociative experience.
Spiritual Explanations
If you want to go really far out on a limb, one can even come up with a
possible theory that involves real aliens or spirits. Suppose that these
creatures do exist, and that they exist in a primarily noncorporeal form
(or, perhaps, they are corporeal, but influence us through noncorporeal
mechanisms). Let's say for example, that there are electromagnetic
entities, made up of flux lines, charged particles, and undoubtedly
things we don't know about, that are alive and sentient. These entities
generally hang out in deep space, or in the ionosphere, and can exert
only a limited influence on the human mind because sensory data normally
drowns them out.
With the senses cut off by dissociatives, however, they can apply enough
energy to induce particular states in our minds. They do their best to
communicate with us, but can only do so through the roughest of
concepts, emotions, and ideas. Perhaps during geophysical events, when a
great deal of magnetic energy is available near the ground, they can
come down, feed off this energy, and contact people directly. Maybe they
can even "construct" objects out of ionized particles and gases. Like
ball lightning, these objects may very well tend to be radially
symmetric, appearing as spheres, eggs, donuts, saucers, and the like.
Regardless of the situation enabling their contact, once they establish
contact with us, they try to communicate with us. However, because of
the limitations, we can only interpret their ideas in terms we are
familiar with: abductions, experiments, placing microchips in our
brains, or taking samples from our bodies. From their point of view they
may intend to convey something totally different, but cannot bridge the
language gap.
Finally, they leave, often leaving behind such physical remnants as
magentized materials, curious radially symmetric patterns on the ground
(indicative of a strong magnetic field and radial ion wind, perhaps?),
memory gaps (which tend to happen when the brain is exposed to strong
electromagnetic fields), and the like.
Of course, this is all so far off the deep end in speculation that
there's nothing whatsoever scientific about it. One could just as easily
say that these effects are the result of natural magnetic and electric
phenomena. Until someone manages to demonstrate that alien encounters
require magnetic stimuli of a more complex nature than can be explained
by simple natural events, this is no more scientific than any religious
faith.
One last point I'd like to bring up. In conversation with these entities
throughout history, the entities (from faeries to aliens) typically
report a strong aversion to iron. Now, iron has two interesting
properties. One, it is at the "bottom of the well" so to speak in
nuclear energy -- you can't gain energy by either fission or fusion of
the iron nucleus. Two, and perhaps more intruigingly, iron is
ferromagnetic, and traps magnetic flux lines. If I were an
electromagnetic entity, whose very form was made out of such flux lines,
I wouldn't appreciate someone dorking with them. Of course, a more
reasonable explanation is that this aversion to iron is a remnant from
the end of the Bronze Age, when iron was a magical metal. But the flux
line theory makes a much better story, don't you think?
Your Own Experiences
If you have any experiences you would like to share with fellow subscribers,
please send them to [email protected] and they will appear in a future issue.
Thank you.
NMDA ANTAGONIST NEUROTOXICITY AND OLNEY'S LESIONS, PART TWO
by William White
This is the second of a two-part article regarding NAN and Olney's
lesions.
Preventing and Limiting NMDA Antagonist Neurotoxicity
So what can you do about this? Well the best thing I can tell you is,
stay away from drugs that might give you brain damage, whether it's DXM,
alcohol, stimulants, benzodiazepines, PCP, or glue. If marijuana were
legal I'd say smoke as much as you want (keep in mind that the smoke
isn't terribly good for your lungs though), since there have been
numerous studies which have shown no neurotoxic effect from marijuana.
But since marijuana ain't legal, ... well, there's always caffeine I
guess (until that's made illegal too).
Realistically, I know many of you are going to keep using DXM,
especially since it obviously doesn't impair everyone who uses it (even
in large amounts). People regularly make choices to engage in
risk-taking behaviour, whether it's rock climbing, driving too fast (or
without a seat belt), eating red meat, not exercising, or taking drugs.
Ultimately that's your choice. Society has made many drugs illegal, and
many argue that if drugs were legalized that would give them an aura of
legitimacy and safety, but it's legal to sit around and watch TV all
day, eat nothing but cheeseburgers, bathe only once a month, and hit
yourself on the head with a hammer, and even as a child I never believed
that legality made any of these a good idea.
So here are some practical suggestions based on research into Olney's
lesions, which may work, may do nothing at all, or may make it worse.
It's up to you to decide, but keep in mind that tomorrow it may turn out
that any one of these is helping to fry your brain.
o Avoid stimulants of any kind with DXM, especially yohimbine. Alpha2
agonists seem to prevent Olney's lesions; yohimbine, an alpha2
antagonist, could instead make the problem much, much worse.
o Make sure you are in good physical condition, with low blood pressure
and low cholesterol. The ability of brain cells to recover from metabolic
insults is vastly improved if cerebral blood circulation is in good
shape.
o Consider Coenzyme Q10 supplementation. One paper suggested that Q10
might be useful in some types of neural lesions. It has been
suggested that, as a mitochondrial energy substrate, it may prevent
brain cells from "running out of fuel".
o Consider a very mild CNS depressant, like a glass of wine or a beer.
I wouldn't go much beyond this, since combining DXM with too much alcohol
can lead to severe nausea. A benzodiazepine is probably overkill.
o Use gelcaps or capsules instead of syrups, which contain glucose; the
presence of high glucose levels seems to make things worse.
o Limit use of DXM extract, which doesn't contain bromide ions, or use it
in conjunction with a little alcohol.
o Limit frequency and dosage of DXM.
o Give your brain a rest of at least 48 hours after using DXM.
o Eat healthily before, during, and after DXM use.
o Consider an alpha2 agonist. Or maybe not; the research isn't conclusive
on this yet.
o Regularly monitor your mental skills and have others monitor them as well.
Make each DXM trip count so you don't feel the urge to reattempt an
unfulfilling trip experience.
That pretty much sums it up. Good luck.
THE RESPONSIBLE APPROACH TO DRUGS
by Neurotik
Chemicals in general have had a tremendous influence in my life. They're
not changing me, as the popular anti-drug sentiment might have us believe.
They have only presented the doors that I choose to open. I've been on a
personal mission to find out just how to use chemicals as a tool, and it's
hard, but it's happening. Too often we as a pro-drug culture get caught up
in the physical difference they present. It's something we haven't
necessarily been used to, so we allow the feeling to overwhelm us and
just enjoy being numb and oblivious to everything around us. Don't
misunderstand, drugs most certainly have a place in our culture for
entertainment, however if that's the only mind set we have, we could
very possibly allow the drugs to consume us and then our point is lost
and we've taken a step backward.
When we take drugs, they physically alter our chemistry and allow us
entry into areas of our mind, culture, and dimension that we haven't learned
to get to on our own. Until we learn how to travel to these regions without
their help, they are a necessity.
I'm hoping 1999 will bring a more comfortable attitude toward drug use in
general. People are uptight about the whole subject. For the most part,
people are also lazy, allowing themselves to be manipulated by the government
and other "well meaning" groups into believe every horror story that they can
conjure up. They refuse to stand up and question what they've been told. They
see pictures and read articles and are horrified at deadly alcohol related
traffic accidents, drug related murders, bozos who are easy to lose their
minds. Cocaine can kill instantly? Oh my God. Didn't my congressman say that?
Must be true. You mean to tell me the marijuana is addictive and can lead to
use of other "harder" drugs? Oh, shit. That HAS to be true because I read it
at the mall on a big advertisement. Wait a minute . . . drugs really do make
you lose control and run the streets on a murderous rampage? Why didn't
someone TELL me?! I had to hear about it from that Anti-Drug group!
Sheesh. Where are our brains? Why can't we think for ourselves?
Let me take a moment to separate some of us, though. We who have
reasonable, curious, logical minds aren't so willing to be restrained or
preached to. We aren't naturally inclined to letting someone tell us what's
good for us or what we should be fulfilling ourselves with. We want to know
for sure what's out there. People, there is a lot more to our great big vast
existence than this miserable rock we're stuck to filled with every piece of
shit who hears a bad drug story and passes it on as a standard. It's up to us
to open eyes, to pass on true information, and to pose questions. Don't accept
anything. Test EVERYTHING! Make sure you know the truth. When we finds those
truths, we have a responsibility to ourselves and our fellows to push it into
the world and force people to hear us. Drugs aren't for everyone, but there
are many who can benefit through the responsible use of them.
Please, don't take my words and tell everyone that I said all drugs are
safe and healthy. That's bullshit and will discredit us very quickly.
Learn. Read everything you can get your hands on. Experiment responsibly.
Be your own thinker and, perhaps most importantly, fight for your right to
make your own decisions. And please, please, please: write what you know.
Talk to people. PUSH THE TRUTH INTO THE WORLD AND FORCE IT TO BE ACCEPTED!
We're not "politically correct." We're not balls of clay to be molded into
the perfect citizen. We are human beings. We are resourceful, curious, and
capable of extreme intelligence. Learn from every experience and grow from
what you know.
If you're going to delve into the potentially wonderful world of chemicals,
do it for yourself and be SAFE. The name of the game is research. We're living
in a time period where we have such an astronomical amount of information at
our fingertips that we can't afford to ignore it. Keep fact from being
distorted.
Help this world to be a better place for everyone.
NEW YEARS EVE
by Gravol
I had to do something different for New Years Eve. Everyone was out
celebrating, and I was stuck at home with quite a bit of LSD and an
8oz bottle of Robitussin. So let bygones be bygones... down the hatch!
Around 10:30pm I took 2 sugar cubes of LSD, then ate some more
a short while later. In the meantime, I began chugging the Robitussin
until most of the bottle was gone. I now had about 4 or 5 sugar cubes
of LSD in me and about 600-700mg of DXM to go with that. The effects
of each drug started at the same time, at first a bit subtle, but
soon I was avalanching towards a peak of unquenchible destiny.
Many people have tried mixing LSD and DXM before. They state that
it's the most intense experience of their entire life. And believe
me, this was truly one of the most intense experiences of my life
as well. When you mix DXM and LSD so they peak at the same time,
you undergo a "Brain Reset" of sorts... it's as if the old you dies
and a new you is reborn... and you begin to realize this as you come
down. You may also experience a change in personality over the next
couple of days, but it eventually wears off. But does it change you?
Perhaps. Before I delve into my own experience, let's see what
William White has to say about mixing the two:
"I've received a limited number (about 20) of reports of mixing DXM with
5HT hallucinogens, primarily LSD and mushrooms. While one person said
this combination was "not recommended", most have had incredibly
profound experiences. On the other hand, very few of these have said
they would ever repeat the combination, as it was simply far too
powerful and terrifying. One person told me that DXM helped him avoid
unpleasant cognitive effects and "bad trips" he might otherwise get from
LSD alone. Regular use of DXM may alter the effects of LSD due to
overall increase in 5HT binding and decreased 5HT2 receptor
binding."
Anyhow, as each drug began to peak, I saw everything moving about me...
the floor, the walls, the computer screen... even the letters on
the computer screen seemed to separate into pigments of 3... magenta,
cyan, and yellow. It's like looking at a TV screen up close... all
that's there is tiny color sequences. For me, LSD seems to separate
these colors from my head, from my perception, so the edge of everything
looks sloppy... for instance, I look at the edge of my desk, and I see
yellow protruding from it... and on the other edge of the desk I see
magenta, so to speak... it's as if my eyes are becoming a TV screen
and I'm seeing the world as it is separated by colors.
As far as DXM goes, instead of one intense separation of colors,
it's like a million little dots (similar to the ones on the TV screen)
flashing at me everytime I look at the wall. I have no idea how these
relate to neuropharmacology, but I'm sure they do. You can almost
"see" a buzz sometimes. Anyhow, all these things kept plaguing me
and were building up in strong intensity to a climax of unequaled
proportions.
Never in my life had I undergone something so intense. So intense,
in fact, that I began to have an allergic reaction and suffered a head
cold for the remainder of the night. But that's just me... sometimes
when I do acid and smoke pot while I'm peaking, I'll get an allergic
reaction and my sinuses will flare up and I'll end up spitting out
mucuous for the rest of my trip. Well, that's what happened this time.
I can take DXM and LSD together, just as long as their peaks don't
coincide with one another. When that happens, all hell breaks loose.
Also, because the peaks occurred at the same time, I suffered the
"brain reset" that I afore mentioned and interestingly enough, the
LSD kept peaking repeatedly (just like DXM does)... I would be at a
point where I thought I was coming down and I wasn't seeing as much
stuff, then all of a sudden bam! The walls would start moving again,
the floor would start moving again, and everything would go back
to just as it was during the peak.... even though this was hours
after the peak. The only explanation for this was the DXM... but
it goes much deeper than that. I've yet to hear a trip report
of someone taking LSD and peaking continuously.
At any rate, I thought I'd never come down. It was one of the
most intense experiences of my life and even though I had a head
cold for the rest of my trip, I noticed my thoughts were practically
erased from my mind and a new me had evolved. Truly amazing. But
yet puzzling.
I continued doing LSD+DXM in the coming weeks, only to find that
the LSD was beginning to burn me out so once my supply ran out,
I didn't really jump to the opportunity of finding more. But it was
a pleasurable experience, and LSD+DXM is still the best buzz in
my book, apart from LSD+nitrous. :)
One final note... as I began tripping into the new year, the
first song I heard echoing through my speakers was Strange Days,
by Jim Morrison. The lyrics follow:
Strange days have found us
Strange days have tracked us down
They're going to destroy
Our casual joys
We shall go on playing
Or find a new town
Yeah!
Strange eyes fill strange rooms
Voices will signal their tired end
The hostess is grinning
Her guests sleep from sinning
Hear me talk of sin
And you know this is it
Yeah!
Strange days have found us
And through their strange hours
We linger alone
Bodies confused
Memories misused
As we run from the day
To a strange night of stone
ALTERED STATES OF CONSCIOUSNESS AND DXM
by Gravol, Charles Morris
This is an extensive article covering the aspects of different states
of consciousness and how DXM may be able to be used to further explore
such states. It should be noted that all of these states can be reached
without the use of DXM, but you should also keep in mind that DXM
may help achieve these states without having to go through months
of intense meditation of and concentration of achieving such states.
Dreaming
It is not exactly known how DXM affects the dreaming state, but many
people have reported abnormal dreaming following a DXM trip. It would
be interesting to study how DXM may increase or decrease REM sleep
following a trip, but what is known is the fact that it's next to
impossible to physically fall asleep while under the influence of
a large enough amount of DXM (anything 2nd plateau and up).
Many scientists believe that sleep restores effective functioning
of the body and brain. Some psychologists, working from an evolutionary
perspective, conclude that sleep evolved to encourage organisms to
remain inactive and conserve energy during time of the day when their
food supplies were low or their predators were especially numerous.
In fact, the manner in which many organisms sleep does appear to have
become adapted to specific needs and environments.
There are different stages of sleep, the first being a twilight
phase called Stage 1. Stage 1 brain waves are "tight" and of very
low amplitude, resembling those recorded when a person is alert
or excited. However, it is marked by slowing of the pulse, muscle
relaxation, and side-to-side rolling movements of the eyes.
Stage 2 and 3 are characterized by progressively deeper sleep.
Brain waves increase in amplitude and become slower. At these
stages the sleeper is hard to awaken and does not respond to stimuli
such as noises or lights. Heart rate, blood pressure, and temperature
continue to drop.
In Stage 4 sleep the brain emits very slow delta waves [Editor's
note: These are the same types of waves that can be reproduced in
the Flasher computer program.] Delta sleep time lessens with age
but continues to be the first sleep to be made up after sleep has
been lost.
About an hour after fallen asleep, the sleeper begins to ascend
from Stage 4 sleep to Stage 3, Stage 2, and back to Stage 1 -
a process that takes about 40 minutes. The eyes move rapidly under
closed eyelids. This rapid eye movement (REM) sleep stage is
distinguished from all other stages of sleep (called non-REM
or NREM) that precede and follow it. This is also the stage
during which most vivid dreaming occurs.
Dreams are simply vivid visual and auditory experiences that
our minds conjure up primarily during REM periods.
One viewpoint as to why we dream is that the astral body loosely
shifts from the physical body and replenishes much-needed energy.
It has been proven that an organism will die if kept from REM
sleep for long enough. And dreams are simply altered states and
'astral' experiences that our mind perceives during this re-
energizing stage. It is also why the term 'falling asleep' was
termed... because your astral body supposedly 'falls' from your
physical body.
Have you ever been startled awake or jerked from a falling
sensation while falling asleep? Especially while in school or
someplace in public? It is simply because your mind is more
alert than normal because of the place where you are or your
overall mental state, and when the body does finally fall asleep
your mind is still awake and actually feels your astral body
leaving your physical and it is so startling that you 'jerk'
back awake, being very embarassed when others may laugh. This
is simply called the hypnagogic startle. In fact, when you
first fall asleep your mind goes over the events of the day
and starts to wander. This is called hypnagogic imagery, and
is an altered state of consciousness.
Now that you have a basic understanding with sleep, we can
move on to artificial alterations in consciousness.
Sensory Deprivation
In the 1950s and 1960s experimenters explored the effects of
sensory deprivation - the radical reduction of sensory stimuli -
on human subjects. These included being put in sensory deprivation
chambers which severely restricted their visual, auditory, and
tactile stimulation. The results were dramatic. The volunteers
were increasingly unable to do mental tasks such as studying.
They grew more and more irritable, and eventually began to
hallucinate. When they were released from their cubicles, they
performed poorly on a number of tests in comparison with a
control group (Heron, 1957).
In sensory deprivation, the subject hallucinates. In some studies
they experienced altered perceptions. And finally, they dreamed,
daydreamed, and fantasized. Within a few hours of entering the
chamber, most volunteers began to experience alternating states
of drowsiness, sleep, and wakefulness. The distinctions among
those states became so blurred that the volunteers found it difficult
to distinguish between waking hallucinations and dreams (Suedfield,
1975). They reported seeing flashes of light, geometrical forms,
and various complex images of objects or living beings (perhaps
similar to CEVs on DXM), as well as hearing various noises. Some
of the participants also described smelling nonexistant odors,
such as tobacco smoke, and feeling that the room or they themselves
were moving. Some of the effects lasted for up to a day after the
end of the experiment.
It should be noted that DXM itself can be sort of a sensory-
deprivation tool, or may increase the effects of a sensory-
deprivation chamber if the subject is under the influence of
DXM at the time. However, not enough research has been done
with DXM and sensory-deprivation to fully understand the results.
Meditation & Dexitation
There are different types of meditation that has been around for
centuries. Zen meditation concentrates on respiration, for example,
while Sufism relies on frenzied dancing and prayer. In transcendental
meditation (TM) practitioners recite or chant a mantra, which is
a sound specially selected for a student by a teacher of TM
to keep all other images and problems at bay and to allow the
meditator to relax more deeply.
In all its forms, meditation supresses the activity of the
sympathetic nervous system, the part of the nervous system that
prepares the body for strenuous activity during an emergency.
Meditation lowers the rate of metabolism and reduces heart and
respiratory rates. Alpha brain waves (which accompany relaxed
wakefulness) increase noticeably during meditation. One might
find the Flasher program again useful when meditating.
People who meditate successfully often report increased
sensory awareness, euphoria, strong emotions, and a sense of
timelessness and expanded awareness.
Meditation on DXM can be an intense experience. Many people
report that DXM increases meditative abilities and the art of
meditation itself can increase CEVs and actually bring about
out-of-body experiences. A lot of people use their DXM trips
to sit back on a comfortable chair or on their bed and put on
their favorite music (headphones preferably) and go into a
deep relaxive state and lose themselves in the music. The term
'Dexitation' has been coined to describe this state.
Try it for yourself. Find a quiet place where you will not be
interrupted for a few minutes. Sit with a straight spine in
a position that is stable. Take several deep breaths, noting
where you feel your breath most strongly - at the nostrils
or abdomen. Keep your attention there as you breathe normally,
not forcing the breath to be long or short or any special way.
Observe the quality of the breaths - whether they are long or
short, deep or shallow, smooth or ragged. Without controlling
the breath in any way, begin to gently count each cycle of
in-out breaths: 1, 2, 3,... up to 10, then begin again.
Continue doing this for 10-15 minutes.
What happened? If you're like most people, you barely began
to count when you were distracted - perhaps by a pain in
your knee, a sound, a fleeting thought of your tenth-grade
biology teacher, or a fantasy. Few beginning meditators
get past 2 or 3 before they are derailed by their thoughts.
But most experienced meditators maintain that this fact
in itself is one of the most valuable aspects of meditation
practice - while the physical and emotional benefits can
be palpable, it is learning about your own mind that brings
you a new freedom and awareness in the world.
Hypnosis
Hypnosis, formerly known as Mesmerism, was initially discredited
by a French commission chaired by Benjamin Franklin. But some
respectable nineteenth-century physicians revived interest in
hypnosis when they discovered it could be used to treat certain
forms of mental ilness.
Strong variations exist of hypnotized subjects and what they
experience during hypnosis. And people also differ greatly in
their susceptibility to hypnosis. If you're easily carried away
by a book or a movie, you're probably extremely susceptible to
hypnosis. Hypnotic susceptibility appears to be partly learned
and partly inherited.
To induce hypnosis, the hypnotist usually begins by focusing
a willing subject's attention on the hypnotist's voice. The
subject may also be asked to concentrate on a specific object
or to visualize a particular scene, such as a relaxing day
at the beach. Guided imagery may be used to bring the scene
into sharp focus - for example, a subject imagining themself
stretching out at the beach might be told to think about
becoming progressively more relaxed. As a subject enters
the hypnotic trance, its effects may be heightened and tested
by some preliminary suggestions. For instance, the subject
may be told that at the count of 10 it will be impossible
to open his or her eyes. Sometimes these suggestions are
put in 'paradoxical' form. Subjects are told, for example,
that the harder they try to open their eyes, the more tightly
shut their eyes will remain. More suggestions of relaxation
follow until eventually the subject appears to be in a state
of complete relaxation.
The effect of a hypnotist's suggestions vary from person
to person. Some people who are t old that they cannot move
their arms or that their pain has vanished do, in fact,
experience paralysis or anesthesia. Some who are told that
they are hearing a certain piece of music or are unable
to hear anything may hallucinate or become deaf temporarily.
Some remember events from their early childhood and say
they feel as though they are experiencing those events
all over again. After instructions such as "You will remember
nothing that happened under hypnosis until I tell you,"
some have amnesia, which lingers even when they are no
longer hypnotized. In still other cases, instructions
received while under hypnosis may temporarily diminish
a person's desire to smoke or overeat.
Some of these results are easier to achieve than others.
It is usually easy to convince suggestible people that they
cannot opoen their eyes or that their arms are too heavy
to lift. It is more difficult to produce anesthesia so
that people become insensitive to pain (Spiegel, Bierre,
& Rootenberg, 1989). And it is still more difficult to
coax people to recall lost memories or to generate
hallucinations (Hilgard, 1965). Hypnotic suggestion, it
seems, is more effective with simpler behaviors or mental
processes.
Self-Hypnosis
Self-Hypnosis (SH) is one form of hypnosis that can be
achieved without having to go to a hypnotist and spending
a lot of money. It can also be used during DXM or the comedown
of DXM and the DXM may itself increase a person's susceptibility
to being hypnosis... however, there are no studies done on
this yet (there will be a section in a future issue regarding
SH and DXM).
Some simple techniques should be mentioned here to let the
reader be able to practice. First, it should be noted however,
that the goal of hypnosis should remain optimistic, to better
your life in some way.
I myself got into SH to further explore the actual state
and see how DXM affected it. So far, I'm in the initial stages
of experimentation so I can't really tell you my results,
except for one experience which I'm going to mention below.
However, I did go to my therapist and he gave me a post-
hypnotic suggestion to remember everything he told me so
it would be easier for me to induce SH on my own.
Basically what he did was put me in a recliner so I was
fully relaxed and used this method, which I might add works
very well:
o Breathe deeply and on each of your first three breaths find
something that you see and concentrate on it... examining
its appearance, size, shape, etc. It doesn't have to be
three separate things, but three different aspects of the
same object. Count 1, 2, 3 as you do this too.
Then with the next 3 breaths, concentrate on 3 different
things that you hear... perhaps the sound of your own breathing,
a ceiling fan or furnace, or a bird outside.
Then with the next 3 breaths, concentrate on 3 different
things that you feel... perhaps the way your back feels against
the chair or bed, how relaxed your feet are, or the presence
of cool air hitting your arms.
o Then, repeat the above step, using 2 breaths for each thing
that you see, hear, and feel.
o Do this one more time, using only 1 breath for each thing you
see, hear, and feel.
o Now let your thoughts roam freely. For instance you might picture
holding a lemon, examining its texture, holding it up to your
nose and smelling the aroma, causing your mouth to salivate.
Everything you concentrate on should have to do with you in
some way... for you are the center of the sphere and you cannot
control anything outside of your own awareness.
o As you continue to do this for several minutes, begin to concentrate
on your eyelids growing heavier and prolonging each blink to longer
and longer amounts of time, until it is physically impossible to
keep your eyes open.
o Now, with the darkness behind your eyes, concentrate on other thoughts
such as standing out in a field on a starry night and looking up
to the heavens and seeing a bright star shining down on you, and
hearing the crickets around you. Concentrate on such thoughts and
let yourself relax deeper and deeper until you no longer notice
the way you're sitting in the chair, or what you hear.
o This is the part where, after several minutes of concentrating and
letting yourself further relax and concentrating mainly on yourself,
your awareness, and how you tie in with the rest of the environment,
you can begin to give yourself suggestions to test whether or not
you are in a hypnotic trance. You may state that your arms have
become heavy and it is impossible to lift them. Or that your eyelids
are so heavy now that you can't open them.
o Even if you're not successful at maintaining a full hypnotic state,
this still makes good practice, and after you've given yourself
a post-hypnotic suggestion as to whether you'll remember this or
not (it is best to remember it and tell yourself it'll become
easier and easier to reach this state in the future), then concentrate
on your senses and how you feel yourself sitting in the chair,
or the sounds that you might hear. Also tell yourself that you
are becoming more alert and awake, and that your eyelids are no
longer heavy and that you can open them.
o Then, to the count of 1 breath, repeat the first 3 steps in backwards
order, until you are fully aware of your surroundings again.
It also may be easier to reach this state after coming down off
DXM. It is probably safe to assume that reaching SH under the influence
of DXM will probably impair the hypnotic trance in some way,
but that is not yet proven. For now, I would suggest trying this
exercise as you're coming down or after when you are more relaxed.
Keep in mind that simple behaviors and feelings are easier to
suggest than producing euphoria, hallucinations, or blocking certain
things from your memory.
Post-hypnotic suggestion can last anywhere from a few hours to
several days.
My own experience involved waiting until I was coming down off
a 2nd plateau dosage, then putting myself in a hypnotic trance using
the above-mentioned steps. It didn't take long until I felt myself
becoming deeply relaxed, and I saw a bright flash of light in which
I associated with becoming fully hypnotized. To test whether I was
hypnotized or not, I told myself that my arms were becoming increasingly
heavy as if they were covered in some sort of gook, and when I tried
to lift them I could barely do so. With this in mind I proceeded to
tell myself that when coming out of the trance I would become euphoric
(a simple post-hypnotic suggestion) and also told myself I would start
seeing CEVs at that moment, in which I did. As I slowly let myself come
out of the trance, I noticed that I had become more alert and awake at
simply my own suggestions and that I could barely remember anything that
I told myself... except for the fact of the euphoria. Almost all at once,
I felt a sort of MDMA-like euphoria flow all throughout my body, from
my toes to the top of my head. It was not an extremely intense euphoria,
nor did it last for very long amounts of time (it sort of came and went
on command), but it was still clearly not something associated with
DXM, but I am now convinced that DXM plays an important role in
helping one achieve the hypnotic trance.
I'll post more of my experiences in the next issue... I never realized
how great a tool self-hypnosis could be, nor how easy it would be to
achieve.
Automatic Writing
Automatic writing is similar to the Ouija board in regards that
you are using another entity to write through your hand, and
letting it have full control of the writing utensil you hold.
In a basic approach, one holds a pen or pencil to a piece
of paper and goes into a trancelike state similar to self-hypnosis.
Then, without any feeling in the hand or control whatsoever,
the individual notices his or her hand writing on the piece
of paper, as if someone or something is writing thru them.
What is written out can be startling and scary... and it is
not known, if there are entities that write through the person,
whether these entities are good or bad (the ones associated
with the Ouija board tend to be bad so it would probably
be the same case here). Some reports have surfaced as to
the writings that appeared... sometimes you have to hold
what is written up to a mirror, upside down, just to read
the message. Other times it is in a different language in
which the person has never studied.
Is this simply our subconscious mind letting out information
that we've somehow collected throughout our lives or are
we letting an entity write through us. If you believe in
the Ouija board, you might begin to see similarities in
the fact that you are letting something move your hand
to communicate a message. However, the trance involved
to induce automatic writing is much different than a ouija
board and takes much more effort and concentration. If
you are moving your hand in any way, shape or form, then
you are not truly doing automatic writing.
You can also automatic type, at the keyboard, by letting
your fingers type after going into a trance. You will
most likely not realize that anything has even occurred
until after you come out of the trance and find something
written. It is almost always some sort of communication,
not just random letters and gibberish. If it's just random
letters and gibberish, you probably aren't doing it right
and need to concentrate further.
If spirits are involved in automatic writing (AW) then
perhaps it would be best to ask for such a spirit to assist
you in going into a trance and using your hand to write
out a message.
It is also not known how DXM may affect automatic writing,
but my best guess is that while coming down one can enter
the trancelike state a lot easier than in normal, waking
consciousness. However, the question remains as to whether
or not automatic writing can be achieved, or how much easier
or difficult it is to achieve, while under the influence of
DXM.
Out-of-body experiences
A lot has been mentioned in previous issues regarding OBEs and
astral projection, so I'm not going to get into it in detail
here, but only touch on the issue that OBEs is one altered
state of consciousness in which DXM _can_ help you achieve.
Not just laying down and feeling yourself float around the
room, but actually astrally projecting your consciousness
to a different place or time.
One theory rests on how DXM affects OBEs and astral projection,
and that is the Dex-Astral Theory, that simply states that
DXM can induce out-of-body travel because of its dissociative
characteristics, however impairs the ability to fully perceive
such a state and limits the amount of astral substance that
leaves the body. One may feel themself fully submerged in an
alternate reality, flying thru time and space... but because
of DXM's effect on the physical body, you cannot project
enough substance to fully perceive the experience as a realistic,
bonafide out-of-body experience. Or it can be that DXM
limits your perceptions and abilities and that while you
may be travelling astrally, you are almost doing so in
a 'blind' fashion, using the visuals of your own mind to
guide you through this netherworld.
Conclusion
In conclusion, it should be noted that there are many different
types of altered states of consciousness. Drugs, for instance,
is a way of reaching an altered state of consciousness. However,
what I am getting at here is that the use of DXM in small amounts
might even bring about an easier way to obtain the above states
of altered consciousness, and if that is true as I suspect, then
DXM would be a great tool for self exploration and insight into
one's own mind.
The main reason I became so fascinated with DXM was the fact that
I could further explore a great interest of study for me... out-of-body
experiences and astral projection. Never had I before been able to
reach such a state until after DXM use, but DXM's direct use also
impaired my ability to maintain a full conscious projection. Instead,
I find it's ability to help induce hypnotic trance while coming down
even more beneficial and with enough practice I believe you can use
DXM has a vital tool in helping to shape the way you want to live
your life, and achieving your goals and desires.
I hope you have enjoyed reading this as much as I've enjoyed writing
this. There's much more to come in the next issue, so stay tuned.
DXM AND THE HOSPITAL DON'T MIX
by Anonymous
I had just finished drinking a bunch of Robitussin. It wasn't really
enough to get me past the 2nd plateau, but I had decided to drink
more about 15 minutes later. That 15 minutes never came.
Instead, only moments later, I found myself being catapulted
into the air after losing my balance from teasing my cat. I thought
I was going to hit the chair, but instead the curtains behind the
chair gave way to the corner of the wall, and next thing I knew
I was sitting on my ass screaming curse words and holding the top
of my head together. No, it wasn't that bad I would later find
out... I didn't get a concussion, but the main was immense and
as I took my hands down away from my head, I realized they were
both covered in blood, and I could feel the blood dripping down
thru my hair and onto my face.
Thankfully, the DXM hadn't yet kicked in so I didn't get paranoid
realizations that I was going to die or become permanently brain
damaged by it. However, I was extremely pissed off and ran into the
kitchen and told my mom to dial 911 (what I would've done if nobody
would've been home). Instead, since she didn't have the minivan there
(my dad took it momentarily down the road to our store), she picked
up the phone and called him, but for some reason the phone wasn't
working at the store so I must've waited 30 minutes on the kitchen
floor screaming and cursing at her to just drive my car. Finally
she decided to do just that and we hurried out into the driveway.
The fucking neighbor was out and waved, and I'm sure he realized
something wasn't quite right when I didn't take my hands from the
top of my head and just gave an awkward smile. Afterall, I was
holding a kitchen towel now to the top of my head trying to stop
the immense bleeding. We got into my car and the Robitussin bottles
from underneath the seat spilled out and my moms hands became
covered with syrup. She began cursing as well, and said she had
to now run back into the house to wash her hands off. This brought
more cursing from me, but just then my dad pulled up so we got
into the minivan and he drove me to the hospital.
I knew it wouldn't be long until the DXM kicked in, and it did...
quite subtly, while I was waiting in the Emergency Room after filling
out boatloads of paperwork with one hand while the other held the
towel to my head. I also felt a million eyes turn on me as I walked
thru the glass doors. I sat down with my parents (across from some
fine looking chicks, unfortunately) and just tried to block everything
out.
The pain was still there, and it hurt quite bad. So I put myself
into a hypnotic trance (something I've learned quite well and am now
able to do within minutes) and gave myself the post-hypnotic suggestion
that I wouldn't worry about the pain, that it would go away, and I'd
become very relaxed. As I came out of the trance, most of the pain did
subside and I found myself not even able to remember quite what happened...
only that I hit my head and I was more interested in what was on the
TV behind me, or what my ex-girlfriend must've been doing (yes,
I had broken up with her the same day this happened, and yes... my
birthday was the next day... what a helluva way to spend your birthday
I thought). Then a baby started screaming 3 seats down from me and
I found it impossible to concentrate on anything but my ringing ears.
This baby wasn't just screaming... but had to have been possessed
or something and was out to make my life a living hell it seemed.
Hours passed (literally) and finally a man protruded from the door
and called me back. I went.
I was hoping that there wouldn't be any signs of being drugged
while they were checking my blood pressure, etc., and I thanked my
lucky stars that I didn't get the chance to ingest my entire dose
of DXM before the accident happened, or else I would've really been
tripping out. At this point I was rehearsing how I would ask for
pain medication, thinking that if they gave me Darvocet or Tylenol
with Codeine I'd ask for something stronger.
At this point the female doctor came in (very nice looking) and
took out a needle. Oh, god I thought. Save me now. She went to the
back of my head while the gay male nurse named John kept making jokes
and trying to make me laugh. It wasn't working. My options were
this... shave my head and give me stitches or just shave around
the wound and staple my head. At first I thought the staples were
a joke, but when I saw a staple gun being held up to my face by
the female doctor, I soon realized I was in deep shit.
Knowing that I probably wouldn't feel the stitches nor the staples,
I opted for the staples since I didn't wanna go around the next day
looking like I got a bad haircut. The gay nurse shaved around the
area while the female nurse then started jabbing me (at least 5 times)
with the needle. Then the stapled my head 5 times as well... at
this point the pain was just a dull throbbing pain and I was beginning
to be glad I took the DXM (DXM is a great painkiller, my friends).
Also, the hypnosis seemed to had worked too.
The nurse squirted some antibiotic on my head and after a few more
gay gestures on his part I was free to go. No pain medication. The
fuckers. It was now close to 10pm (the accident happened at 6pm) and
I was left to go back home and ponder a night gone horribly wrong.
They told me if I got blurred vision, forgot my name, etc., to
come right back. So far so good.
But I did have very strange dreams... dreams which just aren't me.
After awaking I finally felt back to normal, and the pain on my head was
completely gone. Simply amazing.
And to think, I almost ended up being stuck in the hospital
all night on a high dose of DXM. But I guess there are Robo Gods
after all...
And to prove my point, the next day... when it WAS my birthday,
I stood frowning, looking out the window at a tremendous downfall.
I had just got done reading in the paper where there wasn't even
a slight chance of rain, and now it was raining cats and dogs. And
I needed to go out and buy a bottle of Robitussin... but I was
already dressed for my dinner date later that night. Argh. Then I
realized I had never had a bit of trouble my entire life when it
came to buying DXM... even if all odds were against me.
So I said to myself... "I have to go buy a bottle of Robo...
make it stop raining." And at that very instant, the rain subsided
to not even a light drizzle and I was able to leave and buy it.
And now, here I am, sitting as I type this, and the DXM is slowly
beginning to kick in. And yes, my friends, it's a lovely birthday,
because the sun is now out and I feel like last night never even
happened.
Guess I should save the falling for when I'm fucked up.
MIXING DXM WITH 2C-B
by Gravol
In early January, I consumed approximately 35mg of 2C-B after the
initial peak of a 2nd plateau dosage of DXM. All I can say is WOW.
For those who don't know, 2C-B (2-Dimethoxy-iodophenethylamine)
is a Schedule I hallucinogen that I got from Europe. The trip is
much like acid and XTC, but not the combination of the two. The
visuals are more intense than acid, and it involves a lot of color
shifting and other colorful hallucinations.
My experience started out by ingesting approximately 350mg
of pure DXM. I had a great trip, but as with any frequent 2nd
plateau dosage, the intensity doesn't quite last as long as it
once did. So after a few short hours, I took 7 small 2C-B pills
and anxiously waited. The next thing I knew, I was feeling
kind of queasy and unable to sit upright, so I laid down in
my bed... and that's when it all started.
EVERYTHING was moving around me... the floor was shifting,
the walls were bright and colorful explosions of color... even
my Jenny McCarthy posters suddenly came alive and Jenny changed
her facial expression to a sweet, seductive look and began dancing
in the poster. Her hips moved with slow, erotic fashion and
everything about her was coming alive. Her face kept changing
expressions... as if to say 'C'mon, fuck me Jeff... I know you
want to.'
That wasn't the only thing that was coming alive. All around
me, everything I saw was beginning to move in different ways,
different motions... and everything was more colorful and bright.
Even as I turned on the TV, I saw green, blue, purple, and red
stripes appear on the TV screen and there'd be green and red
halos appearing around certain people or objects. This phenomenon
only appeared on the TV, but everything else I saw also had
a distinct quality of uniqueness about it that personified the
colorful arrangements that were blossoming before my very
eyes.
The visuals continued to last for about 2-3 hours, then began
to subside. The after effects lasted another 4 hours or so,
and at this time I felt it was safe to leave for my date and
consume some liquid GHB.
2C-B is a very mellow drug... you don't get knots in your
stomach like LSD or a forcefully loving attitude as with XTC...
but you do trip and you do have mental control over your trip...
you can make it more intense or less intense at your own will.
It's a truly amazing drug... and doing it on DXM was quite
amazing in itself. I felt very floaty and coming down off DXM
at the time only increased the hallucinogenic effects of the
drug.
Apart from the buildup of mucuous in my throat and the initial
queasy feeling (not really one of nausea), this drug was splendid,
and I would definitely recommend mixing it with DXM. I wonder
what it would be like to take both at the same time, in larger
amounts. Probably out of this world!
For those of you who would like more info about 2C-B, you can
find it at any drug information site. I've included some background
information, however, posted below:
"2C-B is an extraordinarily colorful hallucinogen similar to LSD --
apparently somewhat analytical and dissasociative in higher doses or in
those sensitive to those effects. It can be taken orally or nasally. It
is most often found in either powder or pill form. The chart below shows
oral dosages for 2c-b in milligrams (mg).
Threshold........5 mg
Common.....10 - 25 mg
Strong.....20 - 40 mg
Onset...........45-75 minutes
Coming Up.......15-30 minutes
Plateau...........2-3 hours
Coming Down.........2 hours
After Effects.....2-4 hours
As with everything its important to remember that everyone reacts
differently to psychoactives, the following are not predictive but
merely descriptive of what people have reported.
The effects of 2c-b have been described as a cross between the effects
of LSD and MDMA, but that it is nothing like a combination of the two.
It is mildly psychedelic, much less mind-expanding or disassociative
than mushrooms or LSD, but much less directed than MDMA.
2C-B includes Open Eye Visual (OEV) effects which are usually described
as crawling, shifting, or undulating, or cartooning. Closed Eye Visuals
(CEVs) are present and increase with dosage. Many report a 'color shift'
where objects seem to have red / green halos around them.
2C-B has a large 'body' component which some describe as "body
tripping." Shulgin and others say that 2C-B can bring body-issues
forward or make them more prominent and, in this way, some people say it
can be a self-diagnostic tool for body work. Many, but not all, people
experience stomach discomfort sometimes including mild diarhea, gas,
nausea and (rarely) vomiting. One user has reported a very a recurrent
effect of increased mucus production at the base of the trachea, causing
constant coughing during the effects of 2c-b, pseudoephedrine seems to
clear this up. We would be interested in other reports of such
idiosyncratic recurrent effects.
In general, 2C-B has a somewhat 'positive' mood push as well as a mild
stimulant effect, but it is far less stimulating and far less forcefully
positive than MDMA. Some people find they can sleep once the peak is
over (about 60-90mins after the effects start).
Most people experience 2C-B as being much 'lighter' on their body than
MDMA with far less 'crash' and much less physically draining. It is also
not as 'easy' as MDMA, in that it is more of a 'true' psychedelic --
allowing the users mind to become manifest and create the experience
instead of being 'pushed' into a positive mood space as MDMA usually
does.
Some people find the stimulating and body effects to combine in a way
that is sensual or sexual and Shulgin has said that if an effective
aphrodisiac is ever discovered, it will probably be patterned after
2C-B. Many people, however, find it very un-sexy with the body effects
being experienced as somewhat disquieting.
Some people find 2C-B increases their ability to communicate verbally,
while others find themselves unable to elucidate their ideas clearly.
Some people describe a type of confusion that can be part of the
experience, a type of 'stoned' feeling of mental and physical relaxation
or floppiness which can translate in inability or lack of desire to go
into complex intellectual processes.
2C-B at medium and low doses has the interested character that it is
often quite easy to move into and out of -- that going from feeling very
involved in the experience to feeling quite 'sober' can be very fast and
sometimes unexpected. Some people describe 2C-B as being more 'plastic'
or 'malleable' than other psychedelics because one can learn to
manipulate the depth of the effects.
2C-B can be used in some of the same ways MDMA is used for working
through interpersonal issues and dealing with emotional conflicts.
'Inappropriate' smiling or giggling is common with 2C-B and other
psychedelics.
As with all psychedelics, many people experience the coming up period as
being somewhat cold and shivery.
As dose increases, the chance for feelings of fear and uncertainty
increase.
As with other entheogens, it is unsafe to drive or use dangerous
equipment with 2C-B because it effects attention span, visual acuity,
concentration, and coordination. If you work with 2C-B, plan your
entheogen experiences carefully and think ahead so you don't ever find
yourself needing to drive during the experience."
However quite wonderful the experience was, it is probably one that won't
be repeated because of the unfortunate rarity of 2C-B in the common
drug scene. The only place I found to purchase 2C-B is quite expensive
and for now I'd rather just stick with LSD. But it was worth the initial
experience. As with any hallucinogenic drug, it adds another perspective
to your overall viewpoint on life and how you perceive it.
MY FIRST TWO ATTEMPTS
by Faust
When I had heard about DXM, I didn't really believe it. I mean an
OTC drug that's easily available, cheap, and can be stronger than acid?
No way! But when I got on-line and seen the wealth of information, I
knew it was for real. I decided to give it a try.
I was drawn to the spiritual/psychological side, rather than the
recreational side of the drug. I have done alot of psychedelics, and
have my share of experience with dissociatives (Ketamine, PCP).
On my first attempt, I tried an 8-oz bottle of Robomax cough. I
weigh 140lbs, so I figured I should reach the low-mid 3rd plateau. I
downed the whole 8 oz, followed by about 3 glasses of water. My first
mistake was that I ate about a half hour before this (burgerking, BIG
mistake). Next was the setting. My house. Not a good place to trip.
Also, I drank too much water, too fast. Needless to say, I threw up
about a half hour after ingestion. I think I managed to reach a high
first-low second plateau. Not nearly what I was aiming for.
On my second try, I nuked 30 (15mg DXM) sucrets in water. That's
a total of 450mg of DXM. I mixed it up, and drank it. I had been up
since early that morning, and was a little sleepy to begin with. When
the DXM hit me, I got a dizzy feeling that alot of people describe when
it's first hitting them. I decided to lay down. I fell to sleep, and
didn't wake up until the next day.
After 2 failed attempts with DXM, I made a list of tips for
first timers and novices of DXM.
First, and I know you've heard this before, it pays to buy the powder.
Believe me. Second, make sure you're taking on an empty (not starving)
stomach. If you start to feel a little bit of nausea, eat some crackers.
This will allow slower absorbtion of the drug, and nuetralize some of
the acids in your stomach. Third, make sure you plan ahead. Try to plan
it so you'll be in a place where you're comfortable, and free to do what
you like (except driving). Try to be well rested to reduce mental
exhaustion for the trip. You don't want to waste the experience by being
tired or falling to sleep. And last, but definately not least, DON'T
forget your trip-sitter. This may not seem all that important, but DXM
trips can get pretty wild.
Good luck, and happy trails :-)
I'VE JUST MET GOD
by J
Dose: 354mg
Goal of trip:
To gather insight into my current state of affairs. In retrospect, I
would have been better served calling the Psychic Friends Network.
General Mood/Ambiance:
It was 1 am. I was on my way to bed; I had been researching DXM on the
web, and figured, what the heck. Previously I had not been in the best
possible mind set for the last two weeks. The love of my life had left
me saying that I was too intense for her, and she didn t want to be
consumed. It was also about a month off from the anniversary of my
father s death, and a mess of other angry-make events. I admit to being
an adrenaline junkie, (ex NASCAR driver); but my most recent of two
trips, gave me pause to re-examine my lifestyle. I had tripped a week
before, on the same stuff, with a little less quantity, fairly
uneventful, and actually pretty dull. The second time I had Massive
Attacks newest on the juke box, and it was a cold and windy night. Not a
cloud in the sky when I walked the dog around 10pm. I had left one
window open to circulate fresh air, and so I could hear the outside
world, a lucid dreaming trick I had learned at the NIH.
Description:
24 years old, 180lb, I have a rather exotic neurological disorder:
Friedriech s Ataxia, (think Steven Hawking), and have a 160 iq, scored
perfect on the language part of the SAT, (piss poor on the math, but
nobody s perfect). I had never even smoked marijuana before, and was a
virgin extreme to altered states. I had just finished some Sam Adams,
and was already a little woozy as I toddled off to bed.
The Trip:
At 1 am, I chugged a bottle of Robotussin Maximum Strength, Cough and
Cold, (354mg dosage, not a lot I know, [5ml per dose / 118ml in the
bottle x15mg per dose]); I did not gag at all. I climbed into bed,
turned off the lights, and waited. Within 30-45 minutes I was becoming
nauseous, but having had to throw back some truly disgusting substances
for my neurology, I knew could keep it down. About 15 minutes later the
sickness passed, and I, feeling sort of drunk opened my eyes, to look
for visual hallucinations. No such luck, so I closed my eyes, and rolled
over thinking, screw this, just go to sleep . I could feel my thighs
tense and relax, like a puppy in rem. I could hear the leaves rustling
outside. Every car that went by outside, I felt like I was the car for a
split second...Then I opened my eyes again, and found the ceiling,
white, was shifting like it was liquid. This was the coolest thing I had
ever seen. Big sigh. I found myself thinking about my girlfriend; I
think I may have had an out-of-body experience, because I was suddenly
in her bedroom in NC, while I knew My body was in NY. I was sort of
swept along by my thoughts, and found myself crying over her as she
slept. I kissed her on the neck, and was gone. Back to my room, I opened
my eyes again, and felt a presence. It wasn t an elf, or an alien, or
anything which I could make out clearly enough to identify. The shadows
on the ceiling sort of came together to form a void mouth type thing. It
saw that I had been crying and thought/asked if there was anything to be
done. Before I thought/said anything else, It thought/said she'll be
back, she misses you too . Once again I cried. It then started to rain
outside, right on cue, and I knew then what/who I had been conversing
with. I didn't fear it, but I started thinking, hey this is pretty cool,
getting to meet god on your second trip. I then sort of got up, and
robo-walked, (very, very odd) into the bathroom for the most wonderful
piss of my life. The other odd thing about my jaunt to the can was that
I didn't wake up the puppy. I felt such empathy for her, as she slept; I
then had a flash, and I was the dog. So bizarre, so basic, so hungry,
(the vet said that she was overweight, so I was cutting back on her
food). I got her a biscuit, and laid it at the tip of her nose, and went
back to bed. Crawling back to bed, this was odd, but I could swear that
I was levitating, and just sort of slid onto the mattress. I then stayed
awake until the sun came up, coming down; I had peaked at about
2:30-3:30am, and was feeling unusually beat. I fell asleep and woke
refreshed and only had a mild hangover at about 1pm. I massaged my
thighs in a hot bath to lessen the stiffness, and sit here in my
bathrobe, writing this.
I have also in reading the stories, faqs, and information on the web,
have encountered a number of strange real-world phenomena with regards
to my two trips. The first is the dimming of street lights in my
presence. I can shut off all the lamps on Broadway, one after the next,
within a 20-30 foot radius. As I pass by, the last one flicks back to
life. The other thing worthy of note is that I think I shut off the
coffee bean roaster, at my favorite local coffee house, until they took
my order, and then blammo, back on. Really quite bizarre; the other
thing that gave me pause to re-examine was after the first trip, I was
sitting at a red light, but the green wouldn t turn on! From red to
nothing...A sign to slow down my life now, before it s too late. One
which I am heeding with great care. I don t think that this is something
which I could control, but am having fun, with my thought clapper, as I
walk downtown after dark and amaze the odd pedestrian with my new found
power. A group of teens asked me if I was a vampire; to which I replied
"No, I've just met god."
The only recommendation I would have for people interested in DXM, is to
of course take it slowly, and to be certain that they read and
comprehend all of the warnings and contra-indications before they
proceed. I am so grateful to the people who have gone before and left
descriptions of their experiences, I felt it only right to leave my own
for the next generation of pyschonauts. Good-Luck.
P.S. I'll let you know if God was right about my fiancee.
HOW DXM COMPARES TO KETAMINE
by Anonymous
Ketamine is another dissociative that comes up a lot when people are
discussing DXM. Many people who haven't tried both typically put them
in the same class (dissociatives) but go a step further and say the
experience is much the same. However, there are many notable differencese
and anyone who is vastly interested in DXM should also know how it
relates to Ketamine, in case they ever have the chance to try this
amazing drug... also known as Special K.
Drug: Ketamine Hydrochloride
Street Names: K, Ket, Ketamine, Special K, Vitamin K
Brief: Ketamine is an anaesthetic used primarily for veterinary
purposes. Ketamine blocks nerve paths without depressing
respiratory and circulatory functions, and therefore acts
as a safe and reliable anaesthetic. It is commonly injected
intramuscularly, but can also be taken orally and nasal
pharyngealically. Ketamine is only available to physicians,
and is not commonly sold as an illicit drug, and is scheduled
in several states. The most common trade name for Ketamine
are Ketaset and Ketalar, which are intramuscular veterinary
Ketamine HCls.
Chemistry: 2-(2-Chlorophenyl1)-(methylamino)-cyclohexanone hydrochloride
M.W. - 274.2 C13H16CINO-HCL
LD50 (IPR-MUS): 400 mg/kg, LD50 (IVN-MUS): 77 mg/kg.
white solid - melting point 266*C - non-flammable.
Solubility: water 20g/100ml
References: Merck Index, 11th Ed., No. 5174
Anis, N.A., Berry, S.C., Burton, N.R., Lodge, D. "The
dissociative anaesthetics, ketmine and phencyclidine,
selevtively reduce excitation of central mammalian
neurones by N-methyl aspartate." Br. J. Pharmacol 79,
565 (1983).
Psychedelic
Indications: Ketamine does not treat music so well. Expect a narrowing
of your auditory bandwidth. Music will sound neat but not
correct and not transcending. You will selectively lose
frequencies. Use mellow music with a psychedelic flavor,
and keep the volume less than loud because your perception
of overall volume will increase. Visual hallucinations are
most notable in low light. Touch is exceptional. Smells and
tastes will be nulled. Do not expect to talk, although you
may. Expect general reflection but not exceptional
emotionality.
Dosage: Due to its anaesthetic nature, K can produce wide ranging
effects from different amounts. There seems to be a crucial
line where the patient will lose grasp of his/her primary
senses, and this will be termed a Line Dose. A further line
exists where the patient will lose complete consciousness.
In general, boosting is not adequate and it does not seem
worthwhile to boost the original dose more than ten minutes
after initial dose. General tolerance is appreciable and
several weeks between uses are required to return to original
tolerance. For most types, effects are linear with dose, and
good experience can be had at low dosages.
Oral Dose: A Line Dose is about 2.0 mg/lb. body mass. Anaesthetic doses
are above 4.0 mg/lb. A maximum oral dose of 3 mg/lb. should
be set for adequate recovery. Above line dose, increasing
doses yield little psychedelic advantage except for greater
temporary memory loss. A good first dose is 300-350 mg for
average weight woman, and 350-375 mg for average weight men.
A minimum dose of 150-175 mg will give a good psychedelic
experienxe.
IM Dose: Intramuscular doses begin at perhaps .4 mg/lb. for a Line Dose.
Anaesthetic doses to IM are about 1 mg/lb. Two injections
should be made instead of one. Sterility of the bottle and
needle are imperative. 100 mg seems to be a good IM dose for
everyone. Expect soreness in the injection region for several
days or weeks.
IV Dose: I do not recommend IV doses but have read reports of successful
IV dosing. In the IV case you will probably lose motor control
before you finish injecting so beware.
Nasal Dose: Nasal doses are highly unlinear next to oral and IM doses.
The effects are quite different as well at low doses. At
Line Doses, oral consumption is probably a better bet than
nasal doses. A Line Dose nasally would again be about 1.8-2.0
mg/lb. A minimum dose nasally would be about 1 mg/lb, but
will be short and much different from a comparable oral dose.
200 mg would be a good starter for most weights. Ketamine is
relatively comfortable in the nasal region.
Prep: IV and IM require fully sterile Ket bottle and needle. Powder
for nasal use can be gotten from gentle boiling off of
solution. To prepare an oral dose from a powder, place
powder in a cup and pour about 1 cm of hot water (tap should
be ok) in it and stir to solution. Fill remainder of cup with
an acid such as orange juice.
Setting: As with all anaesthetics, Ketamine will make the patient
nauseous to varying degrees, directly related to dosage.
Therefore, the patient should find him/herself in a place
where he/she can stay for several hours, with most ammenities
close at hand (any movement will compound nauseau). A non-
Ketting person is a great help, and will be fun to talk to,
and convenient for changing music, etc. Darkness will
eliminate some very strange visual experiences. Music is
very powerful. Warmth can also be important, as although
your respiratory system will not be depressed, you may
become cold from inactivity. A blanket is a good idea.
Dope should be handy for nauseau, and a bucket should be
available as a precaution. Vomitting should be rare, but
in the case, it is not a good idea to have to travel to the
bathroom. You should try to make sure that your co-trippers
start when you do, as it is a rapid starting drug. Nasal
doses can usually accomodate real scenes, i.e. clubs or
company, but expect things to be very strange.
Timing: Taken intramuscularly, Ketamine will bring you up quickly
in less than two minutes. Orally, with a medium-full stomach,
expect 15-20 minutes, and as little as five minutes on an
empty stomach. Nasal doses allow 5-10 minutes. The
acceleration is great but not alarming. Expect to be
semi-unconscious on a Line-Dose for about an hour intra-
muscualrly, and slightly longer when taken orally. You will
come down quickly as well past the first line, and will begin
to assimilate senses over about an half-hour. When taken
orally, a soft trip will linger for approximately 2-3 hours
after that and can be lots of fun. You will feel light,
lanky, and queasy for several hours, and may be somewhat
light-headed, though not incapacable the following day.
Nitrous has had success in bringing Ketamine down quickly,
despite its anaesthetic nature.
The Trip: Before reaching the first line, fragmentation will occur-
the world will begin to spin, but it won't be dizzying.
Music will become fragmented. Chaos will ensue. At some
point, you will find yourself complete removed from your
surroundings and your body. Descriptions of the post-line
experience vary substantially, but most include talk of
alternate planes of existence, oneness, past and future
revelations, and strange fabrics of all sorts. It will be
very difficult to communicate at this point, and you
probably will not be able to see or hear others in the room.
Some revelations will be extremely heavy and some scary, but
that fear does not seem to come back with you and is
therefore difficult to describe as scary. You will probably
find yourself coming back across the line again visibly,
attempting to put an object in focus or define it. It is
at this point that you will likely want to get in touch with
your co-trippers. This is the "Wow" period. It is very
important here that you do not try to move for awhile. The
trip will continue mildly for an hour or so after this, with
more conventional focuses.
Precautions: An overdose of Ketamine will knock you out as if in an
operating room. This would prove to be a waste of a tripping
experience, and will probably make you ill to your stomach.
The danger dosage is much higher however, at 10 mg/lb.
Interactively, Ketamine should not be used with respiratory
depressants, primarily alcohol, barbituates, and Valium.
Ketamine has been used with no ill interactive effects with
dope, acid, nitrous, dextromethorphan, and MDMA, although no
combinations are recommended and are highly unnecessary given
the totality of ketamine. It does not have a build-on effect
with halucinagins and will generally overpower other drugs.
Nitrous in the up and down periods can be effective.
Unpracticed trippers may be overpowered by the awesome
revelations of Ketamine and may be somewhat overwhelmed,
although in general fear seems to be unable to compound
here (such as in an LSD trip or with other drug paranoias)
and will probably be only episodic. Food should not be
consumed within an hour and one-half before the trip, and
should be avoided for longer periods of time if possible.
A peculiar sort of loneliness can occur over the line, so
it is a good idea to stay in close quarters with people you
are close with, and best to have a sober monitor or
experienced Ketter at hand.
Trips by Dose: Doses that do not push one over the consciousness line can
be very fun if you get close. In general, a 150 mg minimum
would be required to realize an effect. Under that amount,
you will only feel a very operable up and down over about an
half-hour that will give you no insight into Ketamine. At
higher doses, the up will last longer, but in less than
linear fashion. In general it seems that oral doses last
longer. Trips over 450 mg. can be severe on the stomach
and have rapidly diminishing returns over lower doses, and
are therefore not recommended, although 450 mg. itself is a
very sound and powerful trip.
Reports: A number of sources claim Vitamin K to be a boring drug.
Some complain that it removes you so completely from your
body that it is difficult to even work with. Others have
found Vit K to be very potent and shapable, an experience
that can be tailormade by dosage and setting. There is
little question that there is no comparable experience on
any other drugs. Most agree that it has a good to very good
recovery with little negative effect on the following day and
mild hangover. Setting is agreed to be crucial. Most agree
that Ketamin not be used by inexperienced trippers unless
they want a complete out-of-body experience that is sure to
change their life.
DXM ZINE SPECIAL: DXM ARTWORK
By Mad Hatter, Dextrometh, NickCA, et al.
Something you may have noticed that is new for this issue is the addition
of some DXM-induced artwork. Since the Zine is currently a text-only
e-zine, I thought it would be interesting to include some artwork drawn
by some DXMers and include it in the zipped file of this Zine. There
are 6 such files, labeled dxmart1.jpg thru dxmart6.jpg. If you have
any problems viewing these, check out Greendrag's Third Plateau site,
because most of them are also listed there (third-plateau.lycaeum.org).
Thanks also to Greendrag for allowing me to post these, along with the
actual artists of the pictures.
Below lists the descriptions of each piece of artwork:
dxmart1.jpg - Oil painting by Mad Hatter (abstract; green, camouflage colors)
dxmart2.jpg - Oil painting by Mad Hatter (abstract of a flower)
dxmart3.jpg - Computer art by Dextrometh (abstract of bright flourescent clrs)
dxmart4.jpg - Computer art by Dextrometh (worms)
dxmart5.gif - Computer art by NickCA (bright kaleidoscope-like colors)
dxmart6.jpg - Computer art by Ace
We would also like to shed some light on one of the above artists,
Mad Hatter, also known as Shane Watson:
My name is Shane Watson and my life is currently the most fun,
interesting and free that it has ever been in all my 23 years on this
earth. I was supposed to be getting married on May 2nd of this year, but
those plans changed as the five year relationship I had came to a very
sudden end. I found myself single for the first time in half a decade.
While this situation was extremely painful, foreign and awkward at
first, it has since turned into a true blessing. To be quite honest, the
worst thing that has ever happened to me has turned into one of the best
things that has ever happened to me.
To make things more strange, after splitting with my fiancee I took last
semester off from Grand Canyon University (Phoenix) ,which I normally
attend, in order to take a full load (15 hours) of electives at Paradise
Valley Community College. I found myself unable to concentrate and quit
PVCC right around midterms after deciding to take the semester off from
ALL schooling. I then accepted full-time employment at Old Navy (you're
probably familar with their annoyingly stupid television commercials
which usually air around three in the morning on MTV). I enjoyed the new
experience of working at Old Navy, but quit when offered the opportunity
to work as a freelance reporter (covering the Phoenix music scene) for
M2, MTV's new network. Basically, I'm did the same thing I did last
summer (see the internship information below), but this time I got paid
for it. Not a bad gig if you can get it.
I am now back at Grand Canyon University, where I will be graduating in
May of 1999. To be quite honest, I have never been this happy to go back
to schoolquite honest, I have never been this happy to go back to school
in my life. During the semester that I took off (spring '98), I became a
very unmotivated person who accomplished very little. Getting back to
school hasfriends at the university, and has allowed me to see just how
many opportunities in life I have available to me. Not to mention the
fact that I have made countless new friends and have grown very close to
one particular (female, of course) friend over the course of this
semester.
I spent the fall of '96 wasting my time (but learning about life) at
Northern Arizona University (NAU). Before my little detour to NAU, I had
previously spent 2 years at GCU. I will graduate in the spring of '99
from Canyon, despite "losing" the fall '96 semester for the most part. I
am majoring in communications with an emphasis on journalism. My goal is
to someday write for a major magazine or newspaper or to possibly work
in radio or television. I would also like to maintain an ongoing
involvement in the music industry, both local and national. A small
dream of mine is to someday be an actor in television and/or movies, but
due to the "snowball's chance in hell" of this dream coming true, I
don't take it seriously and have put the majority of my eggs into the
basket marked "journalism."
I hope you have enjoyed this special segment dedicated to DXM,
creativity and artwork. Please look for more additions in future
issues, and send in your pictures!
DXM POETRY
by various authors
Here's something I wrote, somewhat in a DXM haze of mindless bliss
in mid-January:
"My Garden"
Love's garden entwined by light
Forest's flowers are heaven's delight
The Emerald-green crystal springs
That flow below the Mind's mighty wings
Are the only things I see or believe
Of He who made Adam and Eve.
Pestilence, care not for thyself
Wither away, for my heart you stay
Wrought beneath a thundrous day
Your tools of desire, little beacons of fire
Underneath a moon stained red
With the blood of the unborn dead.
Go away, let my garden grow
Let the sheperds herd, and the reapers sow
Leave it for the Kings, not for man
For these are the things that are not of this land.
Here's something I wrote a while back... it kind of reminds of one of
those hazy dreams that occur after doing DXM... or perhaps wandering
thru the forest late at night like I once did, with the full moon above
me, not caring who I was or where I was, and just searching aimlessly
for something... anything.
"Midnight Dream"
The strangest night I've ever known
Beneath the moon, I stood alone.
Its hollow glow drove me insane;
With arms outstretched, I called your name.
Nothing greeted me, nothing came.
All was still, quiet until
The moon glowed green, and I screamed.
Locked forever in a waking dream,
I roamed the yards, dismal it seemed.
Wandering through the midnight haze,
Seeking the stone which marked my grave.
I would have given anything to end my days
And be buried in a hole ten feet deep,
Never again to stir from sleep.
I found a garden, in which I slept,
But quickly awoke, and silently wept.
Finally I could take no more;
Nothing left on this earth to adore.
So I took the blade, shiny and sleek,
While tiny creatures around me creeped.
Pressed it against my smooth soft skin,
Never to feel your touch again.
Close my eyes, said goodbye...
And as darkness ignited to light
I opened my eyes to a wonderful sight:
You stood there,
Your shattered heart no longer torn.
And as I touched your face, like silky lace
I awoke from the dream, to the same old place
Where reality fades, and dreams are born.
The following was written by an avid reader of the DXM Zine,
Shane Watson:
"Death Of Comedy"
Written 6/14/96 by Shane Watson
The deaths of the liars
The lives of the saints
The picture of silence
Is the one that we paint
Burning our bridges
Is all fine and well
But sinking the ship
Will force you to tell
Apathy is a noose
And boredom pulls it tighter
The songs of the silent
The words of the mute
The song of confusion
Comes from the broken flute
In the hands of irony It rests unsafe
The message in the bottle
Floats on every wave
Apathy is a noose
And boredom pulls it tighter
The hands of thieves
The world believes
Are guilty
And filthy
With sin
They can't win
Or begin to describe
The things they've seen
I mean
It would be difficult
Apathy is a noose
And boredom pulls it tighter.
"Frost Pulse"
Written 7/22/97 by Shane Watson
If the medicine is poison
Then death is the cure
For my sorrows
All my painful tomorrows
Every problem in life
I borrowed from you
And now I'm bringing them back.
Your sad attack
The days of lies
The knife in my back
I opened my eyes
And forced you awake also
A new hope on the horizon
I thought so
You bought so
Many lines
Many lies
Many a slight of hand is quicker than the eye
And I'm watching...
Your every step in this fragile world
Your every mistake like "every other girl"
In your dirty world, I leave no mud unturned
Oh how my mind burned
When I tried to find an answer for your every reason
When the state of the weather changes with every season
I'm seeing no end
Looking for a friend
Or anyone who can pay attention for a minute to my crazy world
Before I get my flag unfurled
Watch my magic trick
I've used it to confuse the rest of the ones who've heard
Me talking in a world that doesn't listen
Wonder what you're missing?
A one way ride to nothing
A zero in your hand
A lot of disappointment in the "real" world
A pocket full of sand
But now I realize to my life's surprise
That lack of trust will be like the rust
And dust that blows away with the pain of the days of old
And the hateful words gathering mold
And moss with no rolling stone unturned
And no night with emotion in the cold
And no day will ever end
With me never getting to speak to a dead friend
And no moon will disappear
When I don't hear
The things I said I'd never lose
In the final days I choose
An ending more complete than nothing
An eternal resting place with something
A pocket full of gold
From the memories I would bring
To the smiling end
Of a mortal life
With eternal bliss
I'd miss you
But I'd be sure to write.
On a slight change of topic, I know recently we have been touching on
William Blake because his poetry closely ties in with DXM, but I'd
also like to post some of Jim Morrison's poetry, who was greatly
influenced by Blake, even though they lived 200 years apart.
"Tape Noon"
Tell them you came & saw & looked
into my eyes, & saw the shadow
of the guard receding
Thoughts in time & out of season
The hitchhiker stood by the side of the road
& leveled his thumb in the
calm calculus of reason
(a car passes)
Why does my mind circle around you
Why do planets wonder what it
Would be like to be you
All your soft wild promises were words
Birds, endless in flight
Your dog is still lost in the frozen woods
or he would run to you
How can he run to you
Lunging w/ blooded sickness on the snow
He's still sniffing gates & searching
Strangers for your smell
which he remembers very well
Is there a moon in your window
Is madness laughing
Can you still run down beach
rocks bed below w/ out him?
Winter Photography
our love's in jeopardy
Winter Photography
our love's in jeopardy
Sit up all night, talking smoking
Count the dead & wait for morning
(Will warm names & faces come again
Does the silver forest end?)
"Orange County Suite"
Well I used to know someone fair
She had orange ribbons in her hair
She was such a trip
She was hardly there
But I loved her
Just the same.
There was rain in our window,
The FM set was ragged
But she could talk, yeah,
We learned to speak
And one year
has gone by
Such a long long road to seek it
All we did was break and freak it
We had all
That lovers ever had
We just blew it
And I'm not sad
Well I'm mad
And I'm bad
And two years
have gone by
Now her world was bright orange
And the fire glowed
And her friend had a baby
And she lived with us
Yeah, we broke through the window
Yeah, we knocked on the door
Her phone would not answer,
Yeah, but she's still home
Now her father has passed over
& her sister is a star
& her mother smokes diamonds
& she sleeps out in the car
Yeah, but she remembers Chicago
The musicians & guitars
& grass by the lake
& people who laugh'd
& made her poor heart ache
Now we live down in the valley
We work out on the farm
We climb up to the mountains
& everything's fine
& I'm still here
& you're still there
& we're still around
If you liked the above poetry, there's several places on the Internet
that list more of his lyrics, or you can purchase the Doors Box Set
which contains most of the poetry readings.
And finally, some more William Blake, for those of you who liked
what you saw in last month's poetry section. These are from Blake's
Songs of Experience.
"The Sick Rose"
O Rose thou art sick.
The invisible worm,
That flies in the night
In the howling storm:
Has found out thy bed
Of crimson joy:
And his dark secret love
Does thy life destroy.
"The Angel"
I Dreamt a Dream! what can it mean?
And that I was a maiden Queen:
Guarded by an Angel mild:
Witless woe, was ne'er beguil'd!
And I wept both night and day
And he wip'd my tears away
And I wept both day and night
And hid from him my hearts delight
So he took his wongs and fled:
Then the morn blush'd rosy red:
I dried my tears & armed my fears,
With ten thousand shields and spears.
Soon my Angel came again;
I was arm'd, he came in vain:
For the time of youth was fled
And grey hairs were on my head.
"The Tyger"
Tyger Tyger, burning bright,
In the forests of the night;
What immortal hand or eye,
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?
In what distant deeps or skies,
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand, dare sieze the fire?
And what shoulder, & what art,
Could twist the sinews of thy heart?
And when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand? & what dread feet?
What the hammer? what the chain,
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? what dread grasp,
Dare its deadly terrors clasp!
When the stars threw down their spears
And water'd heaven with their tears:
Did he smile his work to see?
Did he who made the Lamb make thee?
Tyger Tyger burning bright,
In the forests of the night:
What immortal hand or eye,
Dare frame they fearful symmetry?
DXM SITE REVIEW
by Neurotik
This month's site review: www2.dope.org
For this month's site review, I checked out http://www2.dope.org,
While you are all roamin' around out there, you should definitely stop by
and check this place out. They have quite a bit of information as well as
a lot of entertainment. Much of their stuff is taken from other sites like
Hyperreal and Paranoia, so that particular section isn't much different than
what you've probably seen before (still lots of good info in there, though),
but what's interesting is the other things they offer -- like their own very
well developed online magazine. They will be releasing their fifth issue
soon, and they're full of good information. Plus you can download clips of
their pirate radio show and lots of good techno music files. Give this one
a shot, you might want to visit it often.
Please stay tuned for next month's site.
INFO ON ORDERING PURE DXM POWDER
from compiled information
Currently, there are many DXM suppliers that will ship to private
individuals. They do not condone recreational use and will only ship
for research purposes. Listed below is some basic information on them
taken off the Internet. For a more precise review of these suppliers,
see Issue 1. Current prices are listed, and where current prices are
unavailable, I posted the old price. Just get in touch with them for
the current price.
Also note that a supplier who was listed in previous issues,
Biogenesis Laboratories of South Africa, no longer sells DXM or
Ketamine. They are still selling GHB, however (http://www.pix.za/
biogenesis). Also, these companies are no longer selling DXM:
Wanman, Kris Kindell, Softearth, Plateau Labs, DxMan, DXM King,
and Zachary Earnest (due to his extremely limited supplies).
Biotech International:
Prices (current)
10g......$20.00
25g......$55.00
55g......$85.00
110g....$130.00
Make checks/money orders payable to Adriano Sanchez.
Shipping and handling is included in the above prices.
International orders please add USD $7.00 to the price.
We accept (International) Money Orders, Cashier's Checks and COD (Charge
On Delivery) orders. Cash and personal check payments are also accepted
but not recommended. COD is not available on international orders.
Shipping
After receiving the payment or placing the order via E-mail, the buyer
will be confirmed that the order was received. We will then proceed to
dispatch the order within 24 hours of receiving it. If there is a delay
for any reason, the buyer will be notified immediately. After the
dispatch of the order, the buyer will receive a notification informing
him/her of the estimated time of arrival and any other useful
information.
Samples of up to 10 grams are packaged in plastic bags and dispatched
via USPS First Class Mail.
Samples of 25 grams and over are packaged in plastic bottles and
dispatched via USPS Priority Mail (included in the sale price).
Address
Biotech International
2221 Saxton Hill Ave
Las Vegas, NV 89106
Internet
You can reach Biotech via email at [email protected].
MBE Technologies:
Prices (current)
15g......$30
50g......$80
100g....$115
Dextromethorphan HBr USP. You must be 18 years of age or
older to order from this company. All research chemicals are
for laboratory research only. Not for human consumption. Read
and know M.S.D.S. (material safety data sheet) prior
to use.
Shipping
No information known.
Address
No information known.
Internet
You may reach their website at http://www.mbetech.net/.
Robo K:
Prices
500mg....$3 (capsule form)
1000mg...$5 (capsule form)
Cash only.
Each capsule contains 500mg. Two capsules cost $5 total.
Shipping and handling included in prices.
Shipping
E-mail will be sent upon receipt of payment and upon shipping of
substance.
Address
No information known.
Internet
You may reach Robo K via email at [email protected].
Sean McKeon:
Prices
1-15g....$8.00/gram
16-25g...$6.50/gram
26-50g...$5.50/gram
51-100g..$4.75/gram
100+g....Email for price
The powder has already been placed into convenient 250mg gelcaps.
Payment in cashier's check or money order only.
Shipping
No information known.
Address
No information known.
Internet
You may reach Sean McKeon via email at [email protected].
SUNSET PH:
Prices (current)
15g.....$45
30g.....$75
50g.....$99
The price includes shipping within the US only.
Shipping
They accept international orders by payment of an international money
order only. International orders must add US $5 additional for shipping.
Address
SUNSET PH
P.O. Box 180684
Austin, TX 78718-0684
Please send an email with your address before you send your money so
they can have your order prepared beforehand.
Internet
Contact [email protected] for more information.
Chemical Resale of Santa Barbara (CRSB):
Prices
Check their web site for their current prices, since they tend to
change from time to time.
Shipping
No information known.
Address
Chemical Resale of Santa Barbara
6 Harbor Way, Suite #171
Santa Barbara, CA 93109-2353
Internet
Visit CRSB's site at http://www.sb.net/wirehead. Orders can also be
emailed to [email protected].
JLF Poisonous Non-Consumables:
Prices (current)
5g......$25
50g....$130
It is best to do business through their website, due to the fact that
DXM is just one of the hundreds of products they sell. All products
carry a 100% money-back guarantee of authenticity.
Orders are usually sent in unlabeled/mislabeled (could say anything from
pampers to motor-oil on the box), recycled containers. To order from them,
you must call them and read their "Ordering Agreement Statement & Required
Release" into a tape recorder. This is necessary to solve any legal problems
that they may encounter. More information on this, including the statement
itself is located at http://www.jlfcatalog.com/disclaim.html.
Shipping
No information known.
Address
JLF Poisonous Non-Consumables
P.O. Box 184
Elizabethtown, IN 47232
Phone: 812 379-2508
Internet
Visit their website at http://www.jlfcatalog.com/, or email
[email protected]
DXM MUSIC AND MOVIE REVIEWS
by various authors
INSOMNIA - A Novel by Stephen King
I was down at the Daytona flea market one day and was skimming through
used books when I found one called Insomnia by Stephen King. I'm only
starting Chapter 4 right now, but it's a great book for DXM. I often
find myself in the middle of a trip, picking it up and reading it,
becoming totally entranced and mesmerized by its words, as if I was
a character in the book or a witness to the events.
Books are a great way to enjoy DXM, but don't try reading them on
high amounts of DXM... they're just like movies. Everything is just
a bunch of random events which don't fit together and are quickly
forgotten, much like a dream.
I've been a big fan of Stephen King while I was growing up, with
the Shining and Pet Sematary being my favorite books. The Shining
reminded me of that haunted manor/hotel up near Cleveland that I
used to stay at and trip on LSD and DXM with my friends.
Since I've never read this book, I decided it'd be better to choose
something I haven't read for DXM instead of a story in which I already
know what happens.
So here's what it's about: Ralph Roberts used to be an ordinary guy -
until insomnia robbed him of sleep. Now he's no longer ordinary - he
can see horrible things happening to the people of his town. He can
see how, one by one, they are turning into monsters straight from hell.
He'd like to call them nightmares, but he's wide-awake. He can't
call himself crazy, because there is another person who sees these
happenings, too. But even if seeing is believing, it still doesn't
give him a clue of how to stop these deadly, demonic visions from
coming true...
I'll be sure to let you know how it was when I finish it!
The Beatles - Abbey Road
The Fab Four definitely have more than one classic album, but Abbey Road
may be the creme de la creme, even if this is the first album the real
Paul was replaced by the fake Paul. The first track on the CD is "Come
Together", a song with a mix of cool base, drum and electric guitar
licks, with awesome lyrics. "Something" and "Here Comes The Sun", are
possibly George Harrison's finest works. "Maxwell's Silver Hammer" is a
musical almost humorous account of an infamous silver hammer serial
killer. "Octopus's Garden" is one of Ringo's most endearing
contributions to the history of the groups masterpieces. The band shows
some of it's hypnotic blues in "I Want You (She's So Heavy)".
Of all the great songs on this CD, "Mean Mr. Mustard", "Polythene Pam"
and "She Came In Through the Bathroom Window" are the trifecta. But the
list of hit tracks goes on. Let's not forget to mention "You Never Give
Me Your Money", "Carry That Weight", and "everybody's happy" with "Sun
King". "Golden Slumbers" rocks.
Abbey Road is for sure one of the best albums to come out of the Beatles
and the 60's and remember that "� in the end, the love you take is equal
to the love you make."
Pink Floyd - The Division Bell
Clearly not one of Floyd's most popular albums, it is the most recent
album released by Pink Floyd (1994) and includes mostly works of
Gilmour.
Wearing The Inside Out is a great song for DXM, along with Keep
Talking and especially Lost For Words is one of the hidden gems of
this CD.
The last track is High Hopes, which is also a greatly overlooked
Floyd song - all around, a good dex album.
A Best Of Pink Floyd ROIOs - By Ron Fleischer
While visiting my favorite local record store, I made a bee-line
straight for the Pink Floyd section, just as I had done countless times
before. I liked the physical act of flipping through the LP's, whether
it was discovering older titles that had recently been restocked, or
contemplating which album was to be my next purchase. Import titles
would make the occasional appearance in variations of greatest hits
packages and alternate covers.
On one particular day, I came across an album called "Knobs." It had a
blurry black and white picture of the band on the cover, and professed
to be recorded on the 15th of March, 1977 from a gig at Empire Pool,
Wembley. I scraped up the $15 to buy what I thought was the Floyd's next
release, but soon discovered that I had purchased my first ROIO.
That was twenty years ago and I still have "Knobs" in my collection. And
it still sucks. That's why you won't find it in my guide to the best
Pink Floyd ROIOs of all time. I've been collecting Floyd recordings for
over twenty years and played a significant role in many Great Dane
releases. You might believe that would have an effect on my
objectiveness, as far as this list is concerned, by I am usually my own
worst critic.
Before getting started, I'd like to pay respect to the great vinyl
ancestors who are suspiciously absent from this list. Most of the old
classic boots have found themselves reappearing on CD, usually from a
better source and more complete. With all respect, to the inspiration
and spirit of those original underground gems, today's digital releases
humbly kiss your pops and ticks.
Rather than just present an objective "Top Ten" list (which would
undoubtedly cause much controversy), I thought it might be best to
identify the best ROIOs representing each of the band's major tours. My
picks are based on sound quality, performance, packaging, and accuracy.
Unfortunately, all the ROIOs that have Syd Barrett performing with the
Floyd in concert are of very poor quality. One of the more prominent
releases, "The Live Pink Floyd Rotterdam," came out on CD and vinyl
simultaneously, and was recorded at the Oude-Ahoy Hallen in Amsterdam on
October 12, 1967 (Bulldog Records BG CD 014). Although the vocals are
almost inaudible on this release, the bulk of the performance is
instrumental, and is worth the effort of an objective listening.
The best Barrett era recordings exist in the form of the Floyd's
appearances on various BBC programs. Many ROIOs over the years have
thrown together bits and pieces of these sessions, but the best of the
lot is "The Complete Top Gear Sessions 1967-1969" (Great Dane Records
GDR CD 9206A/B). This CD came packaged with a 12 page colour booklet,
with liner notes and pictures of the band from that era. The dates for
the sessions are sometimes listed by the air date, as opposed to the
actual recording date. All of the tracks on this CD are better quality
than any other compilation of BBC material, with the exception of "Point
Me At The Sky," which has a tape defect during the first 30 seconds of
the song.
Other releases that I recommend are "Rhamadam" (no label, "No Man's
Land" Production) which contains some rare acetates and alternate
versions of early tracks; "Ultra Rare Trax Volumes 1 and 2" (Genuine Pig
Records TGP CD 114/115) with some excellent sounding early BBC material;
and "The Sights and Sounds Of Syd Barrett's Pink Floyd" (Invasion
Unlimited IU 9423-1).
In 1969, Pink Floyd did a handful of shows which were divided into 2
suites entitled "The Man" and "The Journey." This was the Floyd's first
attempt at creating a "conceptual" piece of music, as the suites
combined newly written material with old classics, seamlessly segueing
one song into the other. Recorded by Hilversum 3 Radio, the
Concertgebouw performance from September 17th was rebroadcast and
released on several ROIOs. The best of the lot are "Amsterdam 1969" (The
Swinging Pig TSP CD 052) and "The Man and The Journey" (Great Dane
Records GDR CD 9207). While the sound quality is better on "Amsterdam
1969," the performance ends abruptly after "The Narrow Way." Great
Dane's release contains the entire broadcast and comes with a 12 page
colour booklet with pictures and liner notes. Unfortunately, the actual
recorded performance was edited, leaving some songs shortened, and
"Work" (one of more interesting experimental pieces) entirely missing
from the broadcast.
Of the best recordings from 1970, one would have to include the July
16th concert at the BBC Paris Cinema. Rebroadcast many times since it's
original airing, this recording has been widely ROIOged over the years.
The show's highlight featured the band accompanied on stage by the
Philip Jones Brass Ensemble and Choir for the grandiose "Atom Heart
Mother" suite.
The best quality releases from this broadcast are "Pink Is The Pig" (The
Genuine Pig TGP CD 125) and "Libest Spacement Monitor" (The Swingin' Pig
Records TSP CD 027), although I'd give the latter the slight edge on
sound quality.
Another great CD from 1970 is "Smokin Blues" (Funny Boot Records FBR
001/002) and is one of my favorites of all time. Although this tape had
been circulated for years, it seems that a super cleaned-up version
unexpectedly surfaced, surprising even the most hard-core collectors.
The sound quality is staggering for an audience recording, and the band
is in great form. This release combines the two performances from the
Montreux Casino on November 21st and 22nd. Believed to exist as an
acetate for a limited promotional release, this CD also contains the two
blues jams, "Just Another 12 Bar" and "More Blues."
The best recording from 1971 was again recorded by the BBC, as the Floyd
returned to the Paris Cinema on the 30th of September. Like it's
predecessor from 1970, this recording has surfaced many times, the best
of the lot being "One Of These Days" (The Swinging Pig TSP CD 034) and
"Meddler" (Harvested Records HRV CD 001). While the latter is in stereo
and comes from a radio source, "Meddler" is in mono, but the sound
quality is unparalleled. "Meddler" also contains "Embryo" and "Blues,"
two tracks recorded at the gig but only rebroadcast by WNEW in New York.
The two bonus tracks are also in mono and originate from a second
generation source.
1972 saw the band premiering it's new piece entitled "Eclipse: A Piece
For Assorted Lunatics," later renamed "The Dark Side Of The Moon." The
early versions from 1972 saw a rawer, experimental form of DSOTM, which
is best represented in "The Best Of Tour 1972" (The Swinging Pig TSP CD
049) whose moniker was handed down from the original vinyl release. This
CD was recorded at the Rainbow Theatre on the 17th of February, and
would contain DSOTM in it's entirety if "Eclipse" didn't fade out a few
seconds short of completion. This is a superb recording of a milestone
concert in the band's career that has probably been released under more
different aliases than any other Floyd boot.
The best sounding complete concert from 1972 would have to be "Staying
Home To Watch The Rain" (Great Dane Records GDR CD 9013) which was
recorded at the Hollywood Bowl on the 22nd of September. More complete
and better sounding than it's vinyl ancestor "Crackers," this Great Dane
release also included a 12 page colour booklet, liner notes and photos.
DSOTM had matured a bit and is closer here to it's final version than
the performances from earlier that year. The second CD features a
first-rate set list featuring "One Of These Days" performed at break
neck speed as well as the final live performance of "Set The Controls
For The Heart Of The Sun."
To Be Continued in Issue 11 with more music reviews. Stay tuned!
VARIOUS DXM SOURCES
from the Physicians' Desk Reference for Non-Prescription Drugs
Note: Acetaminophen is very deadly. DXM products which contain this
substance can kill very easily. The original list contained products
containing Acetaminophen but in order to shorten the list we have taken
those products out and included all other DXM-containing products.
This list is (c) 1999 by The DXM Zine. You may copy without permission.
United States:
Included below are 49 non-prescription medications containing various forms
of DXM. Listed are the active ingredients, any relative notes or cautions,
and a rating of the medication. Ratings are based on the amount of DXM in
the medication and if any harmful ingredients are available. Ratings range
from one * to 4 *'s, with no *'s being the worst rating; if something is
rated with no *'s, you should avoid taking it, probably because of the
presence of Acetaminophen in the medication or very low amounts of DXM.
1. Alka-Seltzer Plus Cold & Cough Medicine
by Miles Consumer
Active Ingredients (per tablet): Aspirin 325mg,
Chlorpheniramine Maleate 2mg, Phenylpropanolamine
Bitartrate 20mg, DXM HBr 10mg.
Notes: In water the aspirin is converted into its
soluble ionic form, sodium acetylsalicylate.
Rating: *
2. Alka-Seltzer Plus Night-Time Cold Medicine
by Miles Consumer
Active Ingredients (per tablet): Aspirin 500mg,
Doxylamine Succinate 6.25mg, Phenylpropanolamine
Bitartrate 20mg, DXM HBr 15mg.
Notes: In water the aspirin is converted into its
soluble ionic form, sodium acetylsalicylate.
Doxylamine Succinate is an antihistamine.
Rating: **
3. Benylin Adult Formula Cough Suppressant
by WARNER WELLCOME
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 15mg.
Rating: **
4. Benylin Expectorant
by WARNER WELLCOME
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 5mg,
Guaifenesin 100mg.
Notes: Guaifenesin may cause nausea in high doses.
Rating: *
5. Benylin Multisymptom
by WARNER WELLCOME
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 5mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 15mg, Guaifenesin 100mg.
Rating: *
6. Benylin Pediatric Cough Suppressant
by WARNER WELLCOME
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 7.5mg.
Rating: *
7. Buckley's Mixture
by W.K. Buckley
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 12.5mg
in a sugar-free base.
Rating: **
8. Cerose DM
by Wyeth-Ayerst
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 15mg,
Chlorpheniramine Maleate 4mg, Phenylephrine HCl 10mg,
Alcohol 2.4%.
Rating: **
9. Cheracol-D Cough Formula
by Roberts
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 10mg,
Guaifenesin 100mg, Alcohol 4.75%.
Rating: *
10.Cheracol Plus Cough Syrup Multisymptom Cough/Cold Formula
by Roberts
Active Ingredients (per tablespoonful/15mL): DXM HBr 20mg,
Phenylpropanolamine HCl 25mg, Chlorpheniramine Maleate 4mg,
Alcohol 8%.
Rating: *
11.Children's Vicks NyQuil Cold/Cough Relief
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per tablespoonful/15mL): DXM HBr 15mg,
Chlorpheniramine Maleate 2mg, Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg.
Rating: *
12.Coricidin Cough & Cold Tablets
by Schering-Plough HealthCare
Active Ingredients (per tablet): Chlorpheniramine Maleate 4mg,
DXM HBr 30mg.
Rating: ***
13.Cough X Lozenges
by Ascher
Active Ingredients (per lozenge): DXM HBr 5mg, Benzocaine 2mg.
Rating: *
14.Dimetapp DM Elixir
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Brompheniramine
Maleate 2mg, Phenylpropanolamine HCl 12.5mg, DXM HBr 10mg.
Rating: **
15.Dorcol Children's Cough Syrup
by Sandoz Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Pseudoephedrine
HCl 15mg, Guaifenesin 50mg, DXM HBr 5mg.
Rating: *
16.Drixoral Cough Liquid Caps (No longer available)
by Schering-Plough HealthCare
Active Ingredients (per softgel): DXM HBr 30mg.
Rating: ****
17.Drixoral Cough + Congestion Liquid Caps
by Schering-Plough HealthCare
Active Ingredients (per softgel): DXM HBr 30mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 60mg.
Rating: **
18.Novahistine DMX
by SmithKline Beecham Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 10mg,
Guaifenesin 100mg, Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg.
Rating: *
19.PediaCare Cough-Cold Liquid
by McNeil Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Chlorpheniramine Maleate
1mg, Pseudoephedrine HCl 15mg, DXM HBr 5mg.
Rating: *
20.PediaCare Night Rest Cough-Cold Liquid
by McNeil Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Chlorpheniramine Maleate
1mg, Pseudoephedrine HCl 15mg, DXM HBr 7.5mg.
Rating: *
21.Pediatric Vicks 44d Dry Hacking Cough & Head Congestion
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per tablespoonful/15mL): DXM HBr 15mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg.
Rating: *
22.Pediatric Vicks 44e Chest Cough & Chest Congestion
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per tablespoonful/15mL): DXM HBr 10mg,
Guaifenesin 100mg.
Rating:
23.Pediatric Vicks 44m Cough & Cold Relief
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per tablespoonful/15mL): DXM HBr 15mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg, Chlorpheniramine Maleate 2mg.
Rating: *
24.Robitussin Cold & Cough Liqui-Gels
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per softgel): Guaifenesin 200mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg, DXM HBr 10mg.
Rating: *
25.Robitussin Honey Cough
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 10mg.
Rating: ****
26.Robitussin Maximum Strength Cough Suppressant
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 15mg.
Rating: ****
27.Robitussin Maximum Strength Cough & Cold
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 15mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg.
Rating: **
28.Robitussin Pediatric Cough & Cold Formula
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 7.5mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 15mg.
Rating: *
29.Robitussin Pediatric Cough Suppressant
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 7.5mg.
Rating *
30.Robitussin-CF
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Guaifenesin 100mg,
Phenylpropanolamine HCl 12.5mg, DXM HBr 10mg.
Rating: *
31.Robitussin-DM
by A.H. Robins Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Guaifenesin 100mg,
DXM HBr 10mg.
Rating: *
32.Sucrets 4-Hour Cough Suppressant
by SmithKline Beecham Consumer
Active Ingredients (per lozenge): DXM HBr 15mg.
Rating: **
33.Sudafed Cough Syrup
by WARNER WELLCOME
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Pseudophedrine
HCl 15mg, DXM HBr 5mg, Guaifenesin 100mg.
Rating: *
34.Triaminic AM Cough and Decongestant Formula
by Sandoz Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 7.5mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 15mg.
Rating: *
35.Triaminic Nite Light Nighttime Cough and Cold Medicine for Children
by Sandoz Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Pseudoephedrine
HCl 15mg, Chlorpheniramine Maleate 1mg, DXM HBr 7.5mg.
Notes: In a palatable, grape-flavored, alcohol-free liquid.
Rating: *
36.Triaminic-DM Syrup
by Sandoz Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Phenylpropanolamine
HCl 6.25mg, DXM HBr 5mg.
Notes: In a palatable, berry-flavored, alcohol-free liquid.
Rating: *
37.Triaminicol Multi-Symptom Cold Tablets
by Sandoz Consumer
Active Ingredients (per tablet): Phenylpropanolamine HCl
12.5mg, Chlorpheniramine Maleate 2mg, DXM HBr 10mg.
Rating: **
38.Triaminicol Multi-Symptom Relief
by Sandoz Consumer
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): Phenylpropanolamine
HCl 6.25mg, Chlorpheniramine Maleate 1mg, DXM HBr 5mg.
Notes: In a palatable, cherry-flavored, alcohol-free liquid.
Rating: *
39.Vicks 44 Dry Hacking Cough
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM HBr 15mg.
Rating: **
40.Vicks 44d Dry Hacking Cough & Head Congestion
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per tablespoonful/15mL): DXM HBr 30mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 60mg.
Rating: **
41.Vicks 44 LiquiCaps Non-Drowsy Cough & Cold Relief
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per softgel): DXM HBr 30mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 60mg.
Rating: **
42.Vicks 44e
by Procter & Gamble
Active Ingredients (per tablespoonful/15mL): DXM HBr 20mg,
Guaifenesin 200mg.
Rating: *
43.PediaPressin Drops
by Quintex
Active Ingredients (per drop): Pseudoephedrine HCl 15mg,
Guaifenesin 50mg, DXM HBr 5mg.
Rating: *
44.Scot-Tussin Sugar-Free DM
by Scot-Tussin
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL): DXM 15mg,
Chlorpheniramine Maleate 2mg.
Notes: This contains pure DXM, not DXM HBr.
Rating: **
45.Scot-Tussin Sugar-Free Cough Chasers Lozenges
by Scot-Tussin
Active Ingredients (per lozenge): DXM 2.5mg.
Notes: This contains pure DXM, not DXM HBr.
Rating:
46.Sucrets 4-Hour Cough Suppressant
by SmithKline Beecham
Active Ingredients (per lozenge): DXM HBr 15mg.
Rating: ****
47.Suppressin DM Caplets
by Quintex
Active Ingredients (per caplet): DXM HBr 15mg,
Guaifenesin 200mg.
Rating: *
48.Delsym Extended-Release Suspension
by Fisons
Active Ingredients (per teaspoonful/5mL):
DXM Polistirex.
Notes: DXM Polistirex is equivalent to
30mg of DXM HBr.
Rating: ****
49.Rondec-DM
Active Ingredients: DXM HBr, Pseudoephedrine HCl,
Carbinoxamine maleate.
Notes: No other information is known on
this product at this time.
Rating: N/R
Italy:
As far as DXM sources available in Europe, one user who lives in Italy said
he used Fluprim by Roche (which should be available all over the European
community). It contains 300 mg of DXM per bottle of lozenges or syrup and
327 mg per box of tablets (each box contains 20 tablets), and DXM is the
only active ingredient. He also mentions Vicks for Dry Cough but it only
has 150mg per bottle of syrup and has a very nasty taste (not recommended).
However, another person living in Italy said Fluprim was not available
anymore (at least in his area), and to stay away from a similar brand
called Formitral Sucrets
United Kingdom:
Also, some users in the United Kingdom pointed out Vicks Vaposyrup, which
contains DXM and guaifenesin, and Robitussin Dry Cough. The other ingredients
in the latter are ethanol, disodium edetate, sodium benzoate, and amaranth
(not sure if these are active or inactive ingredients).
Germany:
In Germany, nearly everyone is taking Dr. Rentschler Tuss Hustenstiller
Retardkapseln. It's 10 60mg pure DXM HBr tablets, costing 12 DM ($7US).
It may be expensive, but it's definitely the best OTC DXM-containing
product in Germany. Besides the Dr. Rentschler, they now have another
OTC DXM source: Hustenstiller-ratiopharmR. It's 20 30mg pure DXM
tablets, costing 10 Deutschmarks ($6US). Many people says the latter
brand doesn't cause nausea as Dr. Rentschler sometimes does.
Australia:
One subscriber in Australia told me that DXM powder and DXM-only cough
syrups/tablets are illegal in Australia. Importing it is classed in the
same league as heroin according to customs officials.
These are all the DXM containing medicines found in Australia, courtesy
of Steel:
1. Logicin Cough Mixture For Dry Coughs (*****)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 30mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 60mg.
Contents: 200ml (600mg dose).
2. Robitussin DM (****)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 30mg,
Guaphenesin 200mg.
Contents: 100ml, 200ml (600mg dose).
3. Sigma Relief (***)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 20mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 40mg,
Guaphenesin 80mg, Sodium citrate.
Contents: 200ml (400mg dose).
4. Actifed CC Dry (**)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 20mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 60mg,
Tripolidine HCl 3mg.
Contents: 100ml, 200ml (400mg dose).
5. Dimetapp DM (**)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 20mg,
Bromopheniramine Maleate 4mg,
Phenylephrine HCl 10mg.
Contents: Grape flavour, 100ml, 200ml (400mg dose).
6. Robitussin DM-P Elixer (**)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 15mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg.
Contents: Cherry flavour, 100ml, 200ml (300mg dose).
7. Euky Bear Cough Syrup (**)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 15mg,
Chlorpheniramine Maleate 4mg,
Sodium Citrate 250mg.
Contents: Honey, Eucalyptus, Lemon flavours;
100ml, 200ml (300mg dose).
8. Neo-Diophen (**)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 15mg,
Mepyramine Maleate 15mg,
Phenylpropanolamine HCl 16mg,
Atropine Sulphate 0.2mg.
Contents: 200ml (300mg dose).
9. Dimetapp Cold, Cough & Sinus Liquid Caps (*)
Contains per capsule: DXM HBr 10mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg,
Guaphenesin 200mg.
Contents: 20 gelatin capsules marked AHR-8600,
(200mg dose).
10.Actifed CC Dry Liquicaps (*)
Contains per capsule: DXM HBr 10mg,
Pseudoephedrine HCl 30mg.
Contents: 12 gelatin capsules marked C2H,
(120mg dose).
11.Actifed CC Junior (*)
Contains per 10ml: DXM HBr 10mg,
Tripolidine HCl 1.25mg.
Contents: 100ml (100mg dose).
12.Cepacol Cough & Sore Throat Lozenges (1/2*)
Contains per lozenge: DXM HBr 5mg,
Cetylpyridinium Chloride 1.33mg,
Benzocaine 1mg, Menthol 5.2mg.
Contents: 16 lozenges; Aniseed, Lemon flavours,
(80mg dose).
Ratings:
***** Worth 5 stars in my book.
**** Worth considering.
*** Less than 4, but still worth considering.
** Can be as strong as 3, but may contain antihistamines.
* Very poor.
1/2* What can I say... wanna stomach 100 cough lollies? :)
Note: When considering doses for each preparation, only the DXM was
taken into account, and is based on the largest available form of
the product. I did not consider any other active ingredients. I am
not a doctor, it is up to YOU to learn about the other things. I only
omitted the Paracetamol (acetaminophen) preparations as they have
no recreational tolerance. Educate yourself, and take care!
If you have any information on any other DXM cough preparations please
let me know and I'll include them in this section.
Listed below are several Internet sites containing useful information
about DXM. Special thanks to Greendrag for help with compiling this list.
The DXM FAQ - Highly recommended
http://www.frognet.net/dxm/contents.html
The Third Plateau - The most definitive DXM site there is
http://www.third-plateau.lycaeum.org/
The DXM Appreciation Page
http://www.ugmadness.com/Ledderson/DxM/
Chris's Web Page - Home of the DXM calculator for windows
http://advicom.net/~chris/
Erowid's DXM Page - Another good source of DXM information
http://www.erowid.org/entheogens/dxm/dxm.shtml
Sputnick's DXM Page - Another DXM archive
http://hepenthes.lycaeum.org/Drugs/DXM/
Hyperreal's Dissociative Page - Dissociative and DXM information
http://www.hyperreal.org/drugs/psychedelics/dissociative/
The Lycaeum's DXM Page - More on DXM
http://www.lycaeum.org/drugs/synthetics/dxm/
Medline - Search this for information on studies done on DXM
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/PubMed/
Infomed's DXM frame - Information regarding low doses of DXM
http://www.infomed.org/100drugs/dextfram.html
DeeXMan's DXM Page - Has a big collection of trip stories.
http://www.geocities.com/SunsetStrip/Venue/3391/dxm.htm
Old reports on DXM abuse (circa 1993)
gopher://hemp.uwec.edu/00/drugs/misc/robo/
Deja Vu: Confessions of a Serial Robo Killer - Highly recommended
http://www.wideawake.org/robo.html
Dev/Null/The Happy Place in your Brain - various DXM information
http://www.kelani.com/hull/
Microsoft Dextromethorphan Experiments - Bill Gates's use of DXM
http://sefi.satelnet.org/~ccappuc/rants/msd.html
Lycaeum Trip Stories - DXM trip reports
http://www.lycaeum.org/drugs/trip.report/dxm.shtml
A Night in DXM Space
http://www.julian.org/journal/100597.html
Poor Man's PCP - An article about DXM taken from Pills-a-go-go magazine.
http://hepenthes.lycaeum.org/Drugs/DXM/poormanspcp.html
The Rave Zone Drug Archive - DXM information in German
http://www.geocities.com/SunsetStrip/Club/6549/
Liber DxM: The Cough Syrup Hypothesis
http://www.brotherblue.org/csh.htm
Tussin Space: Transdimensional Emergence
http://www.unc.edu/~veritas/dissoc.html
DXM Page from the Motacracy Homepage
http://pw2.netcom.com/~nickc/dxm.html
Plateau Sigma - A DXM-related band; you can download their MP3s.
http://kelani.com/sigma/
Official DXM Zine Web Site - The original site
http://www.alaska.net/zorak/dxm/
Official DXM Zine Web Site Mirror - Includes Issues 1 - 9
http://www2.1starnet.com/dominion/
Official DXM Zine HTML Site - Back issues in HTML format
http://members.xoom.com/fuzzycow/dxm/
Another DXM Zine Web Site
http://phun.dreamhost.com/dxm/zine/
Usenet - drug newsgroups on the Internet
alt.drugs hierarchy, rec.drugs hierarchy, talk.politics.drugs
DXM EFnet IRC channels - DXM chat
IRC channel #high, #dxm, #uaf, #robo, #syrup, #dex
DXM DALnet IRC channels - DXM chat
IRC channel #dxm
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with a brief description in the body of the email.
VARIOUS TRIP REPORTS
from Internet reports
Listed below are a few of the more interesting trip reports we have come
across floating around out there on the Internet. Dosage and other relative
information are given when available, and we made no attempt at correcting
grammatical errors, so read at your own risk. Enjoy!
Ant. Dosage unknown.
I'm not sure I recognise the relevance. It would be nice if there were
an additional depth to these experiences, but some things are just
wallpaper. Aesthetically pleasing maybe, but merely a thin veneer with
no inherent value. I guess the movie in which we star may echo earlier
explorers - the wilderness is not always as wild as that we may have
preordained...the forest for the trees et al. I see remembered images in
flickering grey/blue phosphorescence. Am I man enough to be the
conscientious objector I can respect? Set sail upon a sea of
trouble...but will hindsight reveal me simply adrift? I have a terrible
feeling of ominous foreboding - the horizon is significantly darker than
it appeared a decade previous. I think I expected a future painted in
burning white, I have no idea what led to this overly enthusiastic
vision of the yet to be, it just seemed to be the way the cards would
fall.
Instead, the embers of the cold war seemed to have been fanned into
reignition. I guess that at the very least it gives me a cause! I
haven't marched since Palm Sunday and Michelle...all those years ago -
younger, much younger...but now I'd mean it. Then it was simply the
thing to do, newly immersed in tertiary idealism and freedom, it was
right to express some political savvy and march for a cause, even if it
was not truly grasped or understood. But even then it gave a feeling of
belonging. I wore the 'No MX' badge proudly (in tandem with the 'Fuck
off - I voted NDP' button) on my newest affectation, a climbing chalk
bag. It's maternally warm within the clique even when, especially when,
the slogans mouthed are not your own...but now I'd mean it. It's time to
stand. Time to perform the surreal street theatre of death. Super eight
photons flicker across the retinal surface, and the ghosts of the '60's
rise before me.
Where are you now Abbie Hoffman, now that I know your cause? I worry
that my statements aren't subtle enough to be attractive, but fear that
in additional convolution the point may be lost. How does one present
their issues and beliefs in a format sophisticated enough to attract
support, but not so sophisticated that only I, Jung and Freud could
grasp the underlying principles? Cliched? Aren't we all, but still...one
must appease the critic within. I wonder would She (my mother, my ex's,
Lara, Gaia, the Goddess - the feminine incarnations I have known) be
proud? Is this an act of defiance, or merely the making of noise to fill
the silence? I want to hold the flaming flag and burn the acrid, nylon
flesh. Uncle Sam sit me on your knee and tell me another saccharin sweet
lie wrapped within the guise of truth. What happened to those dead years
in between history's momentous peaks? How did the fabulous flappers from
the roaring 20's furiously Charleston their way into the fascist
Goose-step of the 30's?
A premonition...I see Suharto fall, I see Nero play - just another
repetitive motif indeed! Too many monuments, and always plenty of virgin
marble for chiseling names, there's even room for foreign ones. I think
it can only be described as cowardice, my current stance...there's no
longer any comfort in the rhetoric I so readily spew forth...it's
finally down to that confrontation between me and him - the voice
within. To do the right thing, or do the safe thing? I wanted to be Che
before I even knew who he was. Is it true? Are we just a generation
afloat, in limbo with no anchors or roots to the past. Is there any
reality beyond the actual ink used to print our carefully recorded
history?
Where are the physical links? Did these things really occur, or is
simply reading it, wishing enough? Why can't I scream? Are there no
answers, merely the mocking lines of innumerable questions? And they
won't go away, can't go away, because they're all we have. You old men
marching, you left us with a syndrome solved only through sacrificial
bloodshed, and now the maddened screams are internalised because our
hands cannot be cleansed, and to cry out loud would only draw additional
attention to our guilt. Lady Macbeth are we all - out, out, damned spot!
Why must I carry the millstone burden of guilt for actions perpetrated
by my forebears? Why they, theirs? We were all supposed to start out
shiny and new, the proverbial unmarked page, but the old folks remember,
and their bitter memories are osmotically absorbed by the young along
with childhood's fairy tales. What chance did we have? What chance they?
Hate is as virulent and insidious as any viral infection, yet we
illogically fear the anthrax, and quaff the cup of hatred. It's only
dark because we won't open our eyes.
I rejoiced when I saw Madeleine cornered on CNN. I thought that America
had once more recalled the hazy memory of her constitution and joined in
the fray, that the aquarian ideals weren't completely asphyxiated by
80's pecuniary infatuations. There are fragments of similarity out
there, mirror reflections of self - they too fear, they too question.
Why aren't there more? Old men once looked into childhood skies
inhabited only by feathers and wind, whilst alien spacecraft are spotted
by Islam's sons today, and blood is more readily consumed by sand than
western soil. Desiccating desert winds preserve evidence of rage for
future anthropologists to ponder. Global stockmarkets note the trade
index of West versus Middle East, and today in Tokyo, the value of the
Arab child dropped once more against the yen, whilst the price of a
barrel of Saudi crude remained firm. Desperation attempts to force form
from void. I pattern paper with repetitive notations, but it all appears
deceptive.
Unable to fully grasp the concept I perceive, I continue to sketch the
ephemeral edges. I wish to brandish the copper lance and, astride the
peak, challenge the gods of old inhabiting the roiling stormclouds
above...and even now I fear the thunderbolt of redemption. Would it
prove my sanity or stupidity? Mistakes appear randomly repetitive even
on the global scale, and at a generational rate that allows us all the
privilege of partaking in the same dead ashes as yesteryear. Strike the
Jesus Christ pose and become martyr to yet another cause - at least
that's modern accrual accountancy at work, recognising value added to a
life of dubious worth. Perhaps the only value of these words is the
beauty they dance across the page. Is a phrase any less valid if it says
nothing of worth, yet pleases the eye or ear? Aesthetics? Some things
are just wallpaper! Maybe my thoughts, ideas and various other emotional
outpourings fit nicely into that niche. The curlicue of the question
mark taunts me with it's repetitiveness across the page. Do I bring
nothing to the table but the fathomless hungry maw? Nothing to help sate
anothers appetite? So now...what choice...I intend to fade, to sit back
and fade to green.
Ant. Dosage unknown.
31 Jan 98
And all the reflective surfaces, all identifiable elements within my
field of view, that impinge upon my consciousness, that insinuate
themselves within my psyche, began to dislocate. They separated from,
and lost the frame of reference that reality normally provided, they
lose context and become surreal elements in and of themselves - they
exude their inherent Huxleian 'isness'. Although my field of vision has
discernibly narrowed, I have a growing awareness of a great region of
possibility, a field of as yet unrealised probability existing within my
peripheral arcs - I need but turn my head to look, to trigger the
transformation and selection of a new reality, to determine life or
death for Schroedingers cat with the merest glance, but do not for fear
of disturbing my current reverie (1).
Colour drains from all I survey, and an alien mechanical tone replaces
it, a washed out shade of no discernible flavour. The pseudo-colour
takes on a texture, and all of the randomly dislocated objects now
revelling in their isness take on a carpeting of this grimy foreign tone
(2).
My field of view continues to distort and diminish and before final
disintegration, the sharp right-angled thing (that and the fan shaped
thing dominate the scene) takes on an incandescent glow prior to
vanishing completely (much like the final glimmer at sunset appearing
ephemerally brighter than the light that had faded moments before). My
eyes close, I enter the internal realms, and am immediately confronted
with the electric blue aurora borealis of the inner antipodes. Hazes of
neon bright flora dance across the textured black distance in a
perfectly choreographed harmony to Jean Michel Jarres Zoolook. I
perceive motion, not just as a result of the movement before my eyes,
but I can feel the gravitational ebb and flow that accompanies
acceleration and changes in the directional vector throughout my being,
and the movement and visuals are completely and integrally linked to the
music swirling throughout (3).
I determine to do more than smell the flowers and enjoy the ride, I
would attempt to travel the road within that inner realm wherever it
lead, whatever the outcome. I could feel the tension building,
particularly in my jaw and neck, and sweat bead across my back as the
intensity climbed. My body judders and teeth chatter - drugs may
facilitate entrance into this cerebral nether world, but the grasping of
answers is still bloody hard work! With the greatest, most objective
amount of concentration I can still muster, I grapple with this new
reality, try to force the myriad visions to reveal the path (4) - it is
difficult to find, and easily lost within the fractured crystalline
opalescence that surrounds me. The colours continually change and swirl
within the nebulous organic mist (5), and that aspect of self that
retains some semblance of detachment visualises travel along the
contorted and convoluted synaptic pathways, through nerve ganglia and
neural links that exist within the human mind, all the while being
driven by the sounds around me.
There was something that I was tracking - I became aware that there was
indeed a goal toward which I plunged, an answer within to an as yet
unarticulated question, only I was too weak, became distracted and lost
my way. The path is not clearly signposted, it is in fact incredibly
difficult to even identify, and there is so much to see and experience
on the way to an unknown destination. Weathered stone tablets of a
modern glyphic rather than the expected cuneiform, and tripartite
sculptures of rippled black slate and electric blue-white glass were my
downfall! (6).
1. Movement is difficult. All of my limbs and components feel incredibly
heavy and 'compartmentalised'. I know still that I could move, but the
energy required to break the inertia of my current state would be
enormous, and besides, I'm very comfortable as I am. Over time the state
of dissociation accompanying this experience increases - I know that I
have an arm, and I know that there is an arm above my head, but whether
there is anything more than a coincidental link between those two
statements is not known.
2. The carpeting effect reminded me of a faded, dry, cricket pitch,
green - not that it was, but it felt 'green' without necessarily being
of that colour.
3. Many drugs affect the electrical messages sent to and from various
parts of the brain, primarily those pertaining to visual information.
Messages from any of the senses can be perceived as merged together,
creating a sensation known as "synesthesia." This most commonly is
represented as "hearing colors" or "seeing sounds." Definitely what was
occurring.
4. Much like within a lucid dream. As a child I would have lucid dreams
quite regularly, and quickly learnt to manipulate the dream state, much
like directing your own movie. It was sometimes hard work then, and it
was definitely hard work this time. The internal landscape roils and
twists to escape the shackles of comprehension and ones mental grasp, it
is not easily subdued, and its secrets are not easily won.
5. There were other inhabitants within this realm occupying the very
edge of consciousness. Many cloudy, dissipating faces were seen during
travels, inner demons that would tear substance from the aurora with
which to form themselves and then just as quickly dissolve back into the
background swirls. Skeletal horseman within a flowing, golden,
gelatinous river, contrived and constructed of the very liquid in which
they existed, and only discernible in profile, against the darkened
distance.
6. My concentration lapsed, and the question of art entered my mind. I
got caught up in thoughts of object d'art that were weathered stone
tablets, very old, very much damaged by wind and sand, fractured,
broken, reminiscent of the Rosetta stone, but containing 'valid' texts
from Hunter S. Thompson, or the chemical data and molecular structure of
LSD 25. Along with this was the tripartite sculpture...Three large slabs
of black textured slate of decreasing width, but constant height and
depth (maybe 9 feet high). The major pillar had a non representational
swirl of electric blue-white glass melted into its surface, an abstract
form but with inherent significance. The swirled form overlapped
partially onto the second, smaller, and stepped back slab, and then only
a few vague lines onto the third. (I think I may have to actually make
these items - maybe...can glass be melted and merged with the surface of
black slate?)
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Greetings! This is a new section added to the zine for you to post
information about yourself, such as your age, your hobbies, where
you are from, what you do when you trip, or any questions you might
have. I hope you will send in information to [email protected] with
"Personals" in the subject line, and I will be happy to post it.
If you wish to remain anonymous, simply say so in the email. The newest
personals appear first, and remain in the Zine for 5 issues.
Also, please keep in mind that you must be 18 years of age or older
to post a personal.
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From Mister Classified:
Info on me: Professional, 28, married, own own home.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P016" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Pyewacket:
Since you asked, here's some personal info: I'm a 23 year
old male who enjoys digesting knowledge in arcane subjects
which will never be put to use. Besides the occasional
DXM-igration, I also like to consume mass quantaties of
alcohol. It's unfortunate that these, of all, two drugs
have garnered my devotion, since their anti-synnergistic
nature is often easily forgotten when one is bemused in his
own crapulence. I truly believe there should be a law
passed which prohibits the sale of cough medication to the
intoxicated.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P015" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From The Cracked Badger:
White male, early 20's, musician, freelancer.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P014" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Anon003:
forty-something male, interests are astral projection - obe
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P013" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Anon002:
Hobbies and Interests blah blah blah...
I play the guitar. I like to read and write. I experience a duality I
think a lot of readers of this zine are familiar with; the times when I
experience the world as big and wonderful and amazing, each moment and
thing breathing life and color into the surroundings. Then the times
when everything is dull and repetitous and I feel as though my eyes are
only touching the surface of what I see. I like whatever catapults me
into the higher level, and drugs like DXM can do that if used right. I'm
17 and, that's about all. I live in Los Altos, CA, about 10 miles north
of San Jose.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P011" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Colin:
I am 19, My interests are music mainly. I have about 660 CDs and records,
have a noise/experimental audio project, and have a radio show. I also
like Movies (avant-garde, head films, anime, and mst3k), and graphic
novels (ie Watchmen, Maus, V For Vendetta, Signal To Noise, Cerebus).
Http://www.cyberus.ca/~wjpascal/colin/
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P010" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Vein:
Handle: Vein
Age: 18
Interests: Chemistry, art, music, thoughts, girlfriend
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P009" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Sinch:
Occupation: drummer
Interests: music, books, new levels of consciousness, bill hicks,
waking people up to the reality of our situation, video games, waiting
for the VR explosion that will overtake our society after our economy
goes to shit.
Web: http://members.xoom.com/sinch1.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P008" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Vorpal^:
Hmmmm I'm 21... freezing my ass off in Ottawa, Ontario. I'm into movies
(Kidz and Trainspotting are my favorites), music (Orb, Orbital, FSOL,
KMFDM), the net, reading, writing, swimming, camping. My favorite drug
is N2O, but I also really like alcohol (which I am trying to quit now).
I like DXM a lot but after some bad experiences on 2p, 4p, and dose
reboosting; I require a lot of mental preparation to do it, so I usually
only do 1 to 2 second plateaus a month. Oh yeah, you can pretty much
usually find me posting to the third plateau message board
(http://third-plateau.lycaeum.org) or bumming around on the DXM HTML
chat (http://www.angelfire.com/il/ikedxm). I'm *very rarely* on IRC...
but I'm always known as vorpal^.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P007" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Anon001:
Here's what I have to say about DXM, it's a bad drug with KNOWN side
effects, to all the users and abusers out there STOP NOW, get help if you
have to but don't jeopardize your health just for a high it's not worth it
no matter how much you like it and there are little positive effects you
can attribute to its use, if your using it for social anxiety you are just
coping with a neurosis in an incorrect manner and should seek some help or
other methods of acceptance.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P006" in the
subject line. Thank you. 1.)
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From Chimera42:
Anyone have any suggestions? Next time is on an empty stomach, for sure.
Should I not take polistirex? What would be different with 900mg at once
instead of 2 doses? What else is available in Canada? Also, I was
wondering if anyone experienced in Delsym would share info with me.
Any help at all is appreciated.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P001" in the
subject line. Thank you. 2.)
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From Proffwak:
My name is Dan (we'll leave it at that). I'm 21 years old. I live in
a suburb of Philadelphia, PA. I play the drums in a band called SINCH.
I also play other instruments besides tha drums (guitar, keyboard, synths,
bass, samplers). I run my own website about our band and many other things
I find to be worth sharing with other people.
The website is http://members.xoom.com/sinch1.
We also have a page with links to drug related information all over the
Internet at http://members.xoom.com/sinch1/links3.htm.
Thanks.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P002" in the
subject line. Thank you. 2.)
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From Dextro:
I have been using psychedelics and entheogens for the past two years. I
have used DXM even before that. I admit I use DXM sometimes by using
it 3-4 times a week.
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P003" in the
subject line. Thank you. 2.)
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From Wavrider:
I've been doing DXM for two weeks now. I started with Coricidin and
Vicks 44. I stopped taking the Coricidin tablets because I was warned
that the antihistimine would cause brain damage. I just do the Vicks 44
and other syrups. I'm open to any help or suggestions from fellow DXM
experimenters. :)
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P004" in the
subject line. Thank you. 2.)
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From Sexpot:
I've discovered DXM can come in very handy for sex. For one thing,
it's a good substitude for stuff like Stay-Hard. It takes longer to
reach orgasm, but has no real effect on maintaining an erection. Also,
and this may be too detailed for some readers, but I noticed an INCREASED
production of semen in the period of 24 hours following a moderate
DXM trip (not too high of a dosage, only 2nd plateau)... so high of
an increase that it shot out quite a distance. It also went back down
to normal after not doing DXM for quite a while, but always increased
shortly after a trip.
And now, what can I say... the women love me!
(To reply to this personal, email [email protected] with "P005" in the
subject line. Thank you. 2.)
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COMPLETE LISTING OF DXM ZINE PAST ISSUES
The following is a listing of all past issues and their contents.
To read the actual issues, go to http://www.alaska.net/~zorak/dxm/
or http://www2.1starnet.com/dominion/.
Issue 1 - November 1997
o DXM and Creativity
o Streetlights and Other Electrical Phenomenon
o The Nightmare of Coricidin
o Recipe for Getting Pure DXM Powder
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o Delsym...A Whole New Trip
o DXM is Here to Stay
o Schering-Plough's Reply to a Consumer Complaint on DXM Abuse
o An Ode to DXM
o DXM Music Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
Issue 2 - December 1997
o Letters to the Editor
o DXM...The New Wave
o Extrasensory Perception (ESP) and DXM
o DXM Withdrawal
o My Third Trip
o The Trip From Hell...Punderson Manor
o The Effects of Smoking on DXM
o Material Data Safety Sheet on DXM
o The Doors of Perception
o LSD vs. DXM
o My Experiences with DXM
o DXM Writings
o DXM Drug Culture and the Future of DXM Use
o Beware of Bromide Poisoning
o DXM Extraction...A Method That Works
o Moron of the Moment...And My Response
o Tips for Downing Cough Syrup
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
Issue 3 - January 1998
o Letters to the Editor
o Out-of-Body Experiences and DXM
o Brain Wave Stimulation and Inducing Paranormal Events
o DXM Addiction
o A Day in the Life of DXM
o Nitrous Oxide and DXM
o How DXM Compares to Other Legal Highs
o DXM Nausea...And How to Prevent it
o The Fifty-Trip Limit
o Never Again
o The Dangers of Redosing
o Measuring DXM Powder
o The Ouija Board and Other Supernatural Phenomenon
o Lilliputian Hallucinations and Other Uncanny Occurrences
o DXM Hangovers...Avoiding and Alleviating
o The Writings of a Madman...DXM Writings
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music and Movie Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
Issue 4 - June 1998
o From the Editor
o The Road to Insanity: DXM and Salvia
o Tripping in NYC
o Conspiracy Theory
o Media Blitz
o Trip Back In Time
o The Day the Music Died
o Purple Haze
o DXM and Antidepressants
o How to Know When You've Done Too Much DXM
o Cosmic Coincidence Control
o The Day DXM Came to Town
o DXM on Television
o Smoking DXM
o Operation Agent Lemon
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music and Movie Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
o Credits/Zine Information
Issue 5 - August 1998
o From the Editor
o Letters to the Editor
o DXM News
o DXM Survey
o Break on Through (to the Other Side)
o DXM and the Out-of-Body Experience
o Side Dishes: Other Substances that Go Well with DXM
o My Experiences with DXM
o DXM Chemistry Lesson
o DXM and Drug Screening
o The Cord of Life
o DXM Poetry
o DXM Made Simple...DXM Humor
o Robo Journey
o DXM Replacements
o DXM Site Review
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music and Movie Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
o Credits/Zine Information
Issue 6 - September 1998
o From the Editor
o Letters to the Editor
o DXM News
o DXM Survey
o The Power of Astral Projection
o Returning to the First Plateau
o A Complicated View as to How DXM Works
o Hallucinogenic Drugs for Inner Space Exploration, Part One
o Nightmares and Paranoid Delusions
o Tripping at Virginia Beach
o Redosing in New Zealand
o My Theory on Life, Existance, and the Universe
o Space Alien Conspiracy
o A Fishy Experience
o Cough Syrup Extraction
o Miscellaneous DXM Tidbits
o How DXM Affects the Stomach
o Background Info on OTC DXM Manufacturers
o DXM Drug Combos...DXM Humor
o DXM and Hypnosis
o DXM Poetry
o DXM Site Review
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music and Movie Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
o Credits/Zine Information
Issue 7 - October 1998
o From the Editor
o Letters to the Editor
o DXM News
o DXM Survey
o DXM Breakthrough...Grapefruit Juice and DXM
o The New DXM
o The Living Dead
o I Should be Dead
o Hallucinogenic Drugs for Inner Space Exploration, Part Two
o Tripping in Tampa
o The Time I Ate 60 Coricidins
o Life and Death
o Across the Universe with DXM
o Another Moron, Another Moment
o Mixing DXM with Hallucinogenic Mushrooms
o Why Recreational Drugs Have Made the World a Better Place
o The Time I Saw God
o Serotonin Syndrome and Other Conditions
o DXM and Antidepressants...the Bottom Line
o Coricidin May Be Deadly
o Sigma...A Not-So-Fun Trip
o DXM Poetry
o DXM Site Review
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music and Movie Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
o Complete Listing of DXM Zine Past Issues
o Credits/Zine Information
Issue 8 - November 1998
o From the Editor
o Letters to the Editor
o DXM News
o DXM Survey
o Another Breakthrough...Delsym with Grapefruit Juice
o The First DXM Baby
o More on DXM and Grapefruit Juice
o A Near Death Experience
o My Sled...and the Atomic Bomb
o Life Goes On
o DXM...A New Religion
o Believe Nothing
o New...The DXM and Grapefruit Juice FAQ
o DXM and LSD...Two Opposite Drugs that Lead to the Same Conclusion
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music and Movie Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
o DXM Personals
o Complete Listing of DXM Zine Past Issues
o Credits/Zine Information
Issue 9 - December 1998
o From the Editor
o Letters to the Editor
o DXM News
o DXM Survey
o Miracle on Fifth Street
o My First DXM Trip
o DXM...A New Religion, Part Two
o Theoretical Synergistic Combos
o Three Trips in Time
o Confusion about DXM and Grapefruit Juice
o The Thirty-Sixth Trip
o If at First You Don't Succeed...
o NMDA Antagonist Neurotoxicity and Olney's Lesions, Part One
o I Felt My Soul Being Ripped From My Body
o The Cycle of DXM
o DXM Poetry
o DXM Site Review
o Info on Ordering Pure DXM Powder
o DXM Music and Movie Reviews
o Various DXM Sources
o Various DXM Internet Sites
o Various Trip Reports
o DXM Personals
o Complete Listing of DXM Zine Past Issues
o Credits/Zine Information
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Credits: I wish to thank everyone who either contributed to the
zine or helped provide information on DXM. I also would like to
thank IRCers in their endless efforts to shed light on DXM use and
experiences, along with their help and cooperation in putting
the zine together. I especially wish to thank Neurotik, William White,
Greendrag, BlackFury, and RESiST0R. Without your help, this zine just
wouldn't be what it is.
Next Issue: More on Self-Hypnosis and DXM, Nitrous+DXM combos,
Neurology of DXM, plus much more!
About the Editor: Gravol is 21 and works on the zine in his spare time.
Born in Phoenix and having lived in Ohio for most of his life,
he has recently moved to Florida. He is also the author of the
Dramamine FAQ.
About the Co-Editor: Neurotik was born in San Diego, California in 1974
and currently resides in Tennessee with his wife and two step-sons. He
has a day job but is going to school to open his own computer maintenance
business. First and foremost he is a writer.
* If you'd like to contribute an article or any information to the
DXM Zine, email [email protected]. The Zine is free, but any
contributions reduce the tremendous amount of time it takes to complete
it and would be helpful in maintaining its free distribution. Thank you! *
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